Myers-Briggs personality type - ISTP (Introversion, Sensing, Thinking, Perception)

ISTP 
Tolerant and flexible, quiet observers until a problem appears, then act quickly to find workable solutions.
Analyze what makes things work and readily get through large amounts of data to isolate the core of practical problems.
Interested in cause and effect, organize facts using logical principles, value efficiency.


Here these thinkers ponder the apparent chaos of the world in order to extract from it the universal truths and principles that can be counted on. These principles, once extracted, will provide the logical structure on which to build strategies.

Introverted Thinking personality types have a finely nuanced ability to analyse situations, find root causes and foresee consequences. They distrust action taken too quickly without the necessary investigation. They are usually levelheaded, objective, impersonal yet intensely involved in problem solving. They are fiercely independent, seeking input and comments from a chosen few. When reporting to others, they need to establish credibility first: their own and that of the person they are reporting to. If the gap in knowledge and expertise is too great and their own proficiency dismissed, belittled or ignored, they will lose interest and motivation.

They are less interested in running the world as they are in understanding it. They are curious and capable of explaining complex political, economic or technological problems, taking great pleasure in explaining all the factors and intricacies. They are rigorous with their thoughts and analysis, choosing the exact words that convey precisely what is meant. They may spend a lot of time defining words, concepts and systems in order to define a problematic solution.

They are armchair detectives, scientists and philosophers, spending most of their time in quiet reflection to ponder truth, and solve mysteries. They may tend to neglect social requirements and responsibilities, finding many relationships to be too superficial to be of much interest.

It's not the time to move. So I shall take a little break.

Let's just say I am not doing pretty good now and with all the bad lucks that I had accumulated falling straight right on me at a go this month.

It's time for me to slow down and brainstorm on my future instead of letting my life pass wastefully or routinely.

Goal setting, 10 years from now.
(Health, finance, career, studies, relationship with people, interests/hobbies - some pointers to guide me writing continuously as this post will still undergo thorough updates even when publicised.)

Academic -
Currently, I've just started my university life in SIM for more than 2 months.
As a polytechnic graduate, whose course doesn't have pretty much linked to my university course, I do admit I am struggling with my studies.
My tests results are far way too apart from my expectations that I have for myself. I was pretty upset, no I am. It was also peer pressure that lead me to my devastation within my inner self. UOL isn't like RMIT, NUS or other universities, in which my results are purely 100% based on the final year examinations.
And this attracts pretty much JC students, as it gave a familiarised study "lifestyle", unlike a poly one.
In year 1, I have Maths, Statistics, Economics, Banking&Finance, and Principal of Accounting.
The first three subjects that I mentioned are really peanuts to them for they have them in their JC and their A-levels standards are pretty much more tougher.
However, this doesn't stop me learning and pushing myself.
I love studying, I love my course. And I know, it's always not about comparing with others, it's about comparing/fighting with yourself, the biggest enemy.
But sometimes, we got to look at the point-of-view from the society requirements and standards in order to push ourselves further.
My results for the test came back to me. They were .. too low and far away from what I expect of myself.
But I'll still buck up, for myself.
In fact, I have already knew I will not be doing well initially, thus, I have been crashing my friends' lectures to learn more. And of course, some lecturers will chase off so, that's too bad for me.
I tried, I revise but I know I am still not working hard enough for the "society standards".
Goal:
I'll continue to revise, I'll work hard. I'll make sure I'll be proud of myself in 3 years time when I graduated.
And after that, if I have interest more towards accounting than finance, I'll take ACCA. (Most probably not)

Finance interests -
I am very interested in finance market, stocks, investments etc. But I don't know how do I go about it now because I am still pursuing my studies and building my fundamentals on this sector.
Goal:
I will start reading more finance related stuffs, get myself more closer to this area and be very successful in the finance industry extra earning money in other areas on top of my salary.

Piano "interests" -
I've skipped two lessons, in which I've not done it previously. The so-called "rebel".
I flunked my studies, I wasn't really being appreciated for working hard in my piano physically, may I emphasize again, physically in a direct way, for years.
I, therefore, find no meaning, no aim, to continue.
It was too meaningless to continue something that is some, to what I feel, to be redundant and not helpful for my future.
I completely do not have the motivation and because all along, I wasn't doing for myself. Now that I feel I lost my motive to continue, because my motivation, that I have been forcefully working hard for without rewards, isn't watching/appreciating me at all in this aspect.
But I have a twist of my mind, after my piano teacher called me up.
I have another aim. It wasn't pretty easy to change my childhood aim to another. (I can't really explain myself for this sentence and I know it's confusing.)
I have already tried and forced myself to start my grade 8 book. it's already 1/3. It's not me to just dump things just like that. Let me explain further. If I were to throw it now, then why do I start the book in the first place when I know that I will dump it halfway?
It is because I know, I know that I will try. I will do it. I will do it even if I fail badly. I will grab this responsibility and shoulder it. It's pretty hard to explain this thinking but here's my goal.
Goal:
My goal isn't fully on doing for others now. It's now partially change to complete learning the grade 8 book.
I found my aim, my meaning to continue.
I know, that I definitely will fail this. But it doesn't matter because, my goal is to complete the book before February.
Yea, I do know that in other words, I am planning to fail. But passing isn't my aim.

Other interests + goal -
I would like to learn unicycling and swimming. enough said.

To be continued..

This month. is terribad.

I lost my handphone on the 26 of October, my Sony Ericsson Xperia ray, I have had my infomation and stuffs since sec because I transferred them whenever I change my phone.

I lost my bag, which I bought in qoo10, for the seller gave me a wrong order.

I lost my blog/google pictures as you can see from the previous blog posts that all the pictures became black. I have had those precious pictures since 2007, my growing up life stories.
When I went sec, my teenager life, my time with exs, how I struggled as a teenager, friends, my poly life, my working life, etc.

My test results "drop". I didn't do well for my academics.

I "drop" piano, I tried to "rebel" for 2 weeks. Didn't go for lessons.

And yea, was pretty upset.
Devastated.

But. I know, the only person that can bring me up again on my feet.
Is myself, by having a positive mindset.

October 4d numbers that relate :3

041009 3061
241009 3610
101010 7139
241010 3197 2210
081011 1010
101012 3601
201012 1010

For some reasons, I like this pic lol :\

Caption please.

Andre Rieu (Love Theme From Romeo & Juliet)

Like i've said, Im Totally mentally unstable

I totally went emo, into the black hole.

Tweet

"The charming @xVictorielle all smiles, collecting her Salvatore Ferragamo Incanto Charms. #Singapore #Spore #SGwin: The charming @xVictorielle all smiles, collecting her Salvatore Ferragamo Incanto Charms. #Singapore #Spore #SGwin"

DAMNNNNN

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzz -.-

This stupid bestie have always been taking my unglam since long time ago but its ok now i know how to behave in tube dress alr.
1st time wear this kind and i found alot of things that I should be actually be aware of. hais dammit .
SUA la ! @ least i learn at this age .. if nxt time got mature & refine look alr cfm more paiseh ..

ZZZZZZZZZ =.=

#nottodo

I will never drink 1 glass of martini again -___-

For things to change, I must change first.

The past does not equal future. Your future depends on what you do today.
Disciplined action brings future rewards.

My facebook status

At some point in life, things we have fight so hard for - our wealth, fame, achievements & power for our own, does not matter as much as to now anymore.

Sometimes, even if you sow 101% efforts, you may reap only 60% returns.
But whats really more important are those experiences and knowledge learnt from the process, not about winning or losing.
If you succeed, that's good, I'm glad for you. But if you fail, try&try again.

"They that sow in tears shall reap in joy."
Suffer/work hard, and you shall harvest your rewards through the process.

May the odds be ever in your favor. (:

& remember to show care and concerns to people who are dear to you and always support you through your thick and thin.

Relaxed frogs LOL

Can frogs really look like that ? LOL !! like a boss in relax mode manxz :\

Jcube olympic rink rates !

Here is a picture of the olympic-sized rink rates in Jcube.
I live near Jcube so I thought I might just take a picture for future reference.

Rates at per 2hr session & i suggest you bring yur own gloves&socks (:
`I myself haven't tried tht olympic rink yet :\\

real good , watch till end (:

I wannnnnnn eat snow iceeeee !

NTU & SMU rejected me ]:

Can I have a Hello Kitty Hamburglar too ? *pout**pout*

A Japanese Soldier Who Continued Fighting WWII 29 Years After the Japanese Surrendered, Because He Didn’t Know

http://www.todayifoundout.com/index.php/2010/02/a-japanese-soldier-who-continued-fighting-wwii-29-years-after-the-japanese-surrendered-because-he-didnt-know/

Bonus Onoda Quotes:

• Men should never give up. I never do. I would hate to lose.
• Men should never compete with women. If they do, the guys will always lose. That is because women have a lot more endurance. My mother said that, and she was so right.
• One must always be civic-minded. Every minute of every day, for 30 years, I served my country. I have never even wondered if that was good or bad for me as an individual.
• Parents should raise more independent children. When I was living in Brazil in the 1980s, I read that a 19-year-old Japanese man killed his parents after failing the university entrance exam. I was stunned. Why had he killed his parents instead of moving out? I guess he didn’t have enough confidence. I thought this was a sign that Japanese were getting too weak. I decided to move back to Japan to establish a nature school to give children more power.
• Parents should remember that they are supposed to die before their children. Nobody will help them later on, so the greatest gift parents can give their children is independence.
• Never complain. When I did, my mother said that if I didn’t like my life, I could just give up and die. She reminded me that when I was inside her, I told her that I wanted to be born, so she delivered me, breastfed me and changed my diapers. She said that I had to be brave.

)))))))))))))))))));

Terrible, unbearable menstrual cramp but have to pretend im fine during work .. Im sweating cuz of the pain ..
Today pretty much carrying alot books and magazines which worsen my condition );
Painnnnn ...

hmm ..

S I N G L E doesn't always mean available, and T A K E N doesn't always mean in love

- Add on to previous

I folded paper boxes so they can sharpened their colour pencils and throw the waste there.
A few ask me to guide them how to make also.

I happened to saw some pink strips of papers and i folded roses for them to give their mom. LOL
I ask them go out pluck some leaves and branches and find nice presentable ones.
And i scotchtaped the flower, leaves and branches paper covering the flower likea bouquet (Y)

HAHAHHA

They are cute and in fact though kinda nonsensical at times but they know how to respect (:

Kids colouring day ? LOL

Though I havent really touch on my actual jobscope yet and now I am mingling with the kids,

I reeeeeallly love what I am doing nowwwwwww ! :DD

Yes, they at times are nonsensical, irritating, too energetic and unable to really focus,
But I have a lot of fun with them ! ^_______^

I dont have younger children as my friends before,
I have plenty of kiddy cousins but as you know, all my relatives in msia.
So i all along wanna get close to children but dont have chance to till now ):

I get to finally get close to children and talk stupidily LOLLLSSS x:
HA HA HA !

I woke up @ 7am, go piano with sis, end @ 12pm.
Rushed to redhill & Start work @ 1230pm so..

I KNOW I LOOKED DAMN CUI DAMN FREAKING CUI K !!!!!!!!
damnnn cui that's why i think i shud not post on fb LOL

` didnt really celebrate mother's day on the day itself today cuz of work :\

TM

I shall name my manager TM cuz he reminded me of wise Techo Master from neopet who teach neopet stuffs
LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

Friday was the first day of work.

He talked a lot of things to me, asked me a lot of questions too.
Like about my life, my studies, my background, my thoughts, my courses, uni, inspirations, past jobs etc

Then he said about what people I will be encountering with, the children.
The children there are less fortunate ones, may be less a mom, or dad, poor, etc

He asked me why do I think the children went disobedient and skipped school.
I replied a few things like,
- Needed parents attentions (thus the bad behaviours)
- They compare themselves with peers = feeling life unfair
etc ...
dont rmb what I said ,
But whatever I tried to think of, he said nope and I said I give up.
(But i still think i a bit somewhat correct =P)

He said
- Family background unstable and really poor
- Children lost INTEREST in studying
- Dont do homework and eventually the work pilled up
- School/teacher pressures = children trying to escape
- esp. those homework that needed previous work to be done, in order to continue on more things
- ParentS/parent unable to give attentions/show concerns because they too busy working to earn money
- Children may feel neglected
- Situation of chaotic family background (eg. divorcing/arguing) = children cannot study
- Eventually they may mingle with bad company
- And may be rowdy as well
etc..

When he said those, I kinda can see the situation in which is hidden from me.
He added on, there are no bad children, only unlucky/unfortunate ones.

I have many friends who are poor, but I dont know about their family, their stories.
I was kinda surrounded with friends who are keen in studying, to strive and do well.
My environment, family is totally different from the ones TM mentioned.
I began to see another type of world again.

we talked a lot but i cant rmb alr :\

So..
I talked to 2 children .

they have no hp and when i talked about it more, they said about how much money I left in my card..
they have no clues about data plan and line subscription(in which I am using).
` I recalled when I was pri 5/6, I already have a cool handphone and line subed. Thus regarding hp prepaid card, i already clean forgotten about those history.
` My sis also had hp+line subed while in pri, and now in sec, already got iPhone, line subed with data plan.

The bigger child, whom I think looked like pri 5/6 dont even have facebook.
` When i was in pri, I already started chionging neopets, gunbound, runescape, worms, maple and esp. have friendster already.
` Same goes for my sis, with games, frienster and facebook.

X_____x

(:

I have a thing and liking for archersss !! XD

Archers are Dammnn cooooool ! :3

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ !

爱情没有谁对不起谁，只有谁不懂得珍惜谁？

& there goes the second lonely post

What's the point of playing ,
when i don't have any real life friends playing with me since few months back .

What's the point of playing ,
when i don't even have much online friends playing with me .

What's the point of playing ,
when people dc-ed and never come back in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when kids have to go bed and forced to shutdown com in midst of soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when gamers in lan shop have to leave in midst of soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when people said , I msging my gf/bf and afk most of the time in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when there are frequent leavers , dc-ers, laggers and trollers in most games in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when there are 2 aps in mid and both die together when laning in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when people play weird meta like , eg all melees , yet don't have the capabilities to handle and troll in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when Vietnamese refused to speak in English when politely asked in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when people instalock, being confident intiatlly and fed enemies in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when carries aren't hitting the correct targets during engage in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when jungler pinged to help, giving false hopes, and decided to turn back to counter jungle while both btm died in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when people loves to troll frequently in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when people aren't being friendly, talking nicely to one another and guiding in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when actual LoL garena community in soloQs aren't mature , disrespectful , loves to condemn one another in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when I started friendly chats , and friendssssssssssssss bascially ignored me.

What's the point of playing ,
when people does not understand about having fun is more important than virtual achievements.

What's the point of playing ,
when I tried to start friendly conversations during games , trying to bring down the tension yet people just want to win and condemn others in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when soloQs are about co-ordinating with people whom you have never played before.

What's the point of playing ,
when the match-making aren't fair even in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when 3 straight games are matching up against the same premade 4/5 opponents in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when I know I am not that heavy , and requested people to carry me but no avail .

What's the point of playing ,
when you are alone.

What's the point of playing ,
when I am always open for guidance , willing to learn and yet nobody gives you any chance to show.

What's the point of playing ,
when you can carry , with your hidden best champion and owning , yet others are too heavy in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when you can carry , with your hidden best champion and owning , yet others just give up hopes and surrender in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when you know enemy laners have buffs , fed and yet your underleveled carry is being overly aggresive in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when you play your best in every games , yet nobody knows in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when you don't deserve to receive such treatment regarding dc-ers , laggers , trollers in all straight games of a particular day in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when your guyfriends aren't playing with you and girlfriends aren't interested.

What's the point of playing ,
if you are playing soloQs games alone for months.

What's the point of playing ,
when you have no friends willing to play with you.

What's the point of playing ,
when your friends ignore you.

What's the point of playing ,
when you are alone.

I'm definitely not done yet .
definitely not with list continues on.

Tried to consistently psycho-ing myself.
every games.

to cheer up.

to smile :)

I am calm and cool.
I am satisfied with myself.

and I will always cheer up.

I will.
Because nobody loves to be with a person with unhappy aura.

I will. cheer up.
Because I am a happy girl.
Because I don't need sympathy. I definitely do not need short-term concerns.
& a smile cost nothing :)

So who does really appreciate me.?
It's pretty simple to do , i know .
So the point would follow to who does really take the effort to stay in my life ?

I've seen .
I see .

I realised .

I am just ,
a timely entertainment , worthless and thrashed when used and done with my fun and innocence .

I am glad .

It's alrights .
Memories are what's more costly .

It's a happy ending , & I have no regrets . :D

It's actually liquid solution that I am holding onto.

Surfaced . love .

or an empty ♡ .


either way .

TW 1 week trip

' Shall create a private album for my taiwan trip. 

` If interested to view, pm me (:

Near is here.

I feel very lonely, in fact, I really dont need unnecessary fames and attentions.

How do i describe this?
Either people are really busy and accidentally ignore me, or that,
I don't deserve anyone's time.

Must be the latter.
I am always that insignificant to people, for it is totally pointless to talk to me.

owh.

pathetic me eh.

X;

男人最骄傲的不是睡过多少女人，而是能有一个女人愿意让他睡一辈子。
女人最骄傲的不是拥有多少男人，而是她的男人愿意为他拒绝多少女人。

世界上有两种美，
外在美：它能满足你的面子，但不定能给一生的幸福。
内在美：它虽然不能给足你面子但它一定能给你一生幸福。

how i wish i can provide both T___T

shittsssss

dafug!

after calculating.. i realise i dont have enuff $$ to buy .....

4MINUTE - 'Volume Up'

LOL i dont know what is this song about but i saw the hairstyle that i wannnnna !





But i think my face too cute to fit it ? LOLLL
nehmindsss ~ still tryinng to grow long hairrr !
& i haven cut/trim yet :DDD

This post going to be lame i know but i still going to write

Was alone eating 擂茶 from that old granny's stall.
- (never tried before cuz i dont dare eat lei cha from outside stalls)

She was alone tending her stall and i wanted to talk to her cuz she like lonely there but idk what to say cuz no common topic. x;

so after i finish my food, i went into her stall (she was behind washing dishes), and i said, "auntie, 谢谢你的擂茶" and she said "哦！不用客气！" with the biggest smile I ever seen! & i like it! :DDD

I usually dont bother to talk to the stall tender after my meal but you see,
lei cha is usually made for social thingy or when got guests come so i feel i shud talk to her LOL

k i know i lame hehhs !

but her lei cha, for stall standards not bad .. i've tried alot and they taste inedible and incorrigible.
esp the ones from malacca. cannot eat 1 LOLLLLLL !

but my ahma's one incomparable and GODLIKE! - esp the spamming of small shrimps and tasty peanuts in which stalls outside cant afford to spam ingredients. The tasty vegetables used are kinda rare to buy too !

hehhs !

body sponge :3

2nd day of using body sponge when showering ~

FEEEEEEEEEEEEELS SO GOOOOOOOOOOD TO USE THE SPONGE N SCRUB MY BODY ! ^_^

SHUANGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG AH ! :DDDDD

叶子的离开，是风的追求，还是树的不挽留？

爱一个人很难，但忘记一个人更难。
爱情有时真的很伤人，也让人无法自拔。
爱情也有时真的不简单，它会让一个人不顾一切的付出真心。

两个字，要对待您所爱的人： 珍惜。

但爱也很简单！
在这个故事里，我说吗~; 爱就是爱，不爱就不爱，不必搞倒那么复杂吗？

:3

When I was in my 10's , I also wanna learn unicycling, juggling and balloon crafting.
I tink I should soon make another tab of "things I wanna learn" section. Lol!

Since young, even when i started learning how to walk, I've been not sleeping at proper timing.
I could ton overnights, or wake up in wee hours disturbing my parents, my mom told me.
I am already an owl, a night-person.

Teenage time, I was gaming, stoning and having phone conferencing with others till late nights.
Young adults, gaming, stoning and assignments.

For all my 19+ years, I've never have a minimum 7 days subsequent days of proper sleep.

So, for the sake of myself and R

With the damaging 19+ years of dark eyes circles to myself,

I will and MUST cease the puffiness, and lessen the color of my circles.
Dont have to be perfect color as the rest of my skin,

The ultimate aim is to Lessen and cease the color of my dark eye rings.

I do not wish to buy products because seriously, I dont think it will work.

So i Googled and gathered from different sources of remedies.

Home remedies

Remedy 1: Sufficient sleep (7 to 9 hrs) - will sleep @ 10-11

Remedy 2: Plenty of fresh fruits and vegetable, especially brightly colored ones.
- lack of vitamin K (or get products), B12 or inadequate antioxidants

Remedy 3: Drink sufficient water (8-10 glasses)
- I gotta admit I don't even drink a glass per day. (dislike since young but will do it)

Remedy 4: Grate or mash washed raw potatoes and slice thick cucumber - 10 to 15mins
- Gotta go market ._.

Remedy 5: Cooled tea bags (Drink and ltr reuse by cooling overnight in fridge, prefer chamomile)

Remedy 6: Don't drink too many fluids before bedtime for it increase puffiness

Remedy 7: Frozen Spoon / cooled washcloth (Reduce puffiness)

Remedy 8: Reduce salt intake

Remedy 9: Invest in products - Not gonna do this.

=D

yeaa ~ I will do it and prolly.. take pictures every month to see improvements?
hees !

YOSHHHHHHHHIES YY !
GAMBATTEHHS OHHS ! ^-^

That's ..

Sore wa ... ~
Sore wa sugoi ne !

I being lame and killing time so write comments

Saw a post somewhr so imma comment here..

高貴的女人　看她的內衣。
Me has no lingerie collections. They are all normal solid-coloured ones.
Furthermore, appealing and those to my likings ones are really expensive for me to buy.
(I see no reasons at this age now to buy)
∴ I guess I'm normal.

精緻的女人　看她的指甲。
Imma pianist and i dont like my nails to be long for hygiene purposes.
I dont wanna trap dirt inside for health concerns.
Dont have particular like/dislike towards medicure. Feel neutral.
∴ I guess ... I'm still normal ? LOL

性感的女人　看她的香水。
Hmm .. unless special occasions or when I'm "available and ready", if not I won't put on perfumes.
On normal days, the "perfume" I would apply is Rexona anti-perspiration only.
∴ I guess I'm still normal

氣質的女人　看她的手錶。
I can't judge myself on this yet cuz I haven't found the watch that is to my liking or suit my appearance.
∴ Null

拜金的女人　看她的包包。
Hmm .. i seldom buy bags. And my bags are normal.
∴ Normal bahh ..

可愛的女人　看她的朋友。
Hmmmmm this damn tricky ..
Friends at my age .. some dont see things the same way as me, some I cannot understand.. too many diff types
so.... ~ .________.
idk how to judge this LOL
∴ Null

感性的女人　看她的文章。
If I were to choose the only ONE that I would write on: expository, persuasive, analytical, argumentative
I would choose argumentative.
Because I would have to research and use factual sustenance to support my statements of both the agree and disagree one.
And then reasoned both sides out with EEE, pros and cons.
I cannot persuade, I cant write a imaginative story. I can analysis, but I am not good in forecasting.

Hmmmmmmm ..

∴ Null cuz idk how judge this LOL

賢惠的女人　看她的拿手菜。
THIS ONE damn easyyyyyyyyyyy !
I cant even make a proper half-boiled egg and dont even know how use rice cooker.
∴  Enuff said, i failed.

浪漫的女人　看她的睡衣。
I find tanktop/ t-shirt and homely shorts damn cute and comfortable for me alr. Pajamas are fine too.
Never tried night gowns before..
∴ Null LOLL

小資的女人　看她的化妝包。
Never put on thick makeups before. Seldom bring makeup bag out so..
To me, I'm naturally beautiful and adorable in my own ways already.
Enuff said.

內涵的女人　看她的父母
My parents taught me well.
Enuff said.

LOLLLLLL k i'm jus killing my time ~
but overall , I think im still too young to judge my own because of many factors.
Only if i would shop and have the money to spend on the actual things that i really wanted for myself, then see agn ba ~

ROFLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

I wannna buy ..

Kazoo ! :3

Michel Teló - Ai Se Eu Te Pego - Oficial (Assim você me mata)

黃鴻升 平行時空

Sometimes, giving someone a second chance is like providing them another bullet after they missed you the first time.

Now you know the reasons to certain things to why i choose not to give chances and be real stubborn.

Not that im selfish or self-centred.
I love myself and wanna do the best out of my life.

Book Quote 4

C'est la vie

(sei la vee)

Book Quote 3

"Most of us don't know how to be nice to ourselves. We shoot ourselves down for not being perfect. We hate ourselves because we're not pretty enough or skinny enough. We're hard on ourselves if we don't get top marks or are not picked for the netball team. Sometimes we are our own worst enemy.
The only excuse for being so tough on yourself is because you have low self-esteem. YOU have already decided that you're so unimportant."

Book Quote 2

"I'm convinced that it's all about believing in yourself, and that's why it's so important to respect yourself."
After all, until you believe in yourself you won't have the confidence to fulfill your ambitions, speak up for your beliefs, make good of your dreams, and end up with the boyfriend of your choice"

You choose your fate.
Don't ever allow others (example: parents, teachers) to dictate your future. Telling you what you should do, what you ought to do and had you convinced to give up your dreams and what you inspired to be. *Doesn't apply to all situations :3

Book Quote 1

"We were so busy in believing what everyone said about us that we forgot who we really were.
Most importantly, we forget how to respect ourselves and our opinions."

:3

Bought a toy harmonica today LOLLLLLLLLLLLLL
but idk how to play it LOLLLLLLLLLLLL
tml got time then i learn and be lame HEHEHHEH

naiseeeeeeeeeeeeee !

sashaxoxo.com

wahhhh ! this blogshop clothes fking chio and i especially like the dress section LOLLL

but cannot anyhow spendd $$ );
I'll jus wait till april :3

HOW true is this ?

What's the difference between a woman with pms and a terrorist?

You can negotiate with the terrorist.

:|

无理之愁；非需理而愈

- I have found that anger inevitably seems to be conjoined with emotional investment… And that makes you suffer." Astrid Farnsworth (FRINGE)

For me, I don't know how did i do it or since when, but my anger seems to be able to convert to sadness.

And I would always cry because I'm angry.

I can't be easily angry, hardly seen.

Since when I was really young, I have already told and brainwash myself,
being angry is really pointless.
Whats more important are that things are done to salvage the situation.

And if i cant succeed, I will also cry.

Probably that's why bah.


When I was young, I hated no one. Even now.

I couldn't hate anyone no matter how much they disappoint me because.
There is a far way greater "thing" that I always hated in my heart.
Else, are just "sesame green bean" stuffs that I could not be bothered about.
I could tolerate a lot things for the things and experiences at my age to take the relevant nonsense.

I hide a lot of things not because I am afraid i might be betrayed.

I feel a lot of things are unneeded to share, everyone has their own life to care about.
I feel more comfortable with things in my heart, more securities.

And that I dont have to bother people with my nonsense.
But I know it's damn unhealthy... lol..

recalling back when i was young, I was really goddamn obedient.

whenever i trying to rebel, trying to voice my views and opinions,
i was shut off immediately and saying I cannot “顶嘴”,

and that I simple gave no respect to elderly when i really really do give them tons.

I have no say. Nobody feels me when I was young and lend me their listening ears.
I have to engulf all my pains and thoughts within myself.

I know everyone will go through something like mine, but I am really an obedient child.
And i needed someone to talk to, very often. Esp those, who i valued and respected a lot, the "adults" that chided me.
I dont like more troubles, bringing more unhappiness and I swear I was really, really really a very obedient child.
I dont know why but I think I am still one, right now (:


- 千里之行﹐始於足下。

Have I not been trying..? Have I not move even a bit ..?

- 不患人之不己知，患不知人也。
I should be stop being self-centered, hoping others would know, understand and appreciate me.
I should jolly well get the idea of the world is evolve ard me, and not the otherwise.


My facebook pic,

regarding: Work like you dont need the money, love like you have never been hurt before does not.

Actually I do not literally mean to work like you dont need the money.
That shows the surface message with shallow thoughts.

Its about conveying a msg,
I know life is tough, hard, terrible struggling, suffocating. We all do know.

But do you want to bear a hatred and be unhappy forever in your own life? Just a least, "TRY" to think positively.

Try, even a little i mean. If not, your life given by your parents are simply wasted because you live a sad, hated life with sorrowful vengeance.

Whats the point of internal struggling within yourself the whole life when you will die one fine day?

You said, Im still young, I know nothing.

Do I not have things I very much hated to do in my life since young before?
Do I not, may i ask?

I did whine, cry, rebel and everything. Yes i admit i hated, yet at the same time, I think positively.
It's really hurtful, really, really very much painful to the core.
It tore me into countless pieces and made me a failed person.

I know what benefits I could get, I know who i can satisfy my results with (but not appreciated on the surface), but still hated terribly much till I really wanna give up umpteen times, really many times.

And may I repeat once again, "I know life is tough, hard, terrible struggling, suffocating. we all do know."

Though I really hated it to the core, I still have to think positively.
And if i do not, how do I managed move till this far?

And for goodness sake, its a decade of unhappiness and struggle, (plus do take in an account of my age). A decade in my age..

For that, i became really introvert. Till i start to learn again and overcome.
But the differences aren't huge.

I wonder who thinks like me when I posted that.

❣

There are only two type of extreme important days to me that I hold in high regards,

My birthday & my favorite day.

My birthday - the Date that I was born.
My favorite day - Just any day that I spent with you.

❤

Stitch.

Oh yes,
I could write a first person recount story telling already, just like a curious incident of the dog in the night-time, with such emotional plot of mine.

Gonna go out and pass dickson his fuckyea shirt alr.

How random can i be ?

You have a horrible, evil creature living within you.
But on that representative front of yours, you sure do portray an angelic persona, mister.
And same goes for you madam.
When one climbed his way back up silently, with painful sorrow and burning desire for revenge while gritting his teeth,
It will be sweet, honey (:

"There is no such thing as a good girl. A good girl is just a bad girl who hasn't been caught yet."

"We stopped checking for monsters under our bed, when we realized they were inside us."

Internship presentation weird qns that i could recall

1. Why do you have to put pie-charts instead of other charts like bar charts?
: (duhh, that was my requirement as i have stated in my previous slides and i was told to make pie-charts -.-)

2. Where did you find your researched information from?
: (-.-" duhh .....)

cramp agn .

i dont wanna see anyone anymore
dont wanna get anymore unreachable hopes
hah .
i feel like a joke
yea .
i think i soon having depression uh .
or it must be my moodswing .

lol
wtfux

can i lose touch with everything n be in my own world ..?
probably learnt too much things ..
probably bottled up too many things ..
it me who gave up things around me
so i will bear the aftermath .

i think im having a real fever .
who would care .
yea right .. for all the things i've done , still expecting concern like as if i deserve much

sigh .
i need a real hard slapping words on me .

down .

what is my happiness ? .. when my sadness chased everyone off .

..
..

what am i doing now .
i shall get motivated alr .

should nt get emotional alr .
im letting myself down .

);

k . i dont have the same frequency with people around me .
im always .
the one
so uniquely thinking about other things
or always catch no balls ..

Tell me, that you are beside me, supporting me yea ..

I have not made any 2012 resolutions yet because I have the whole year time to think about it.
And i have thought of some things now.

1. I will be more sensible.

2. Enough of the acting cute, acting favourable, acting bhb, etc (unless needed or to people whom I feel secure and safe.)

3. I will work hard, and extra hard in anything I do.

4. I will definitely not let myself down, and my loved ones too.

5. Enough of my laziness and procrastinating.

6. I will strive and be determined towards my goals.

7. I will work hard to make even that little changes to the world.

8. I will do things in a manner and behave myself to earn respect.

9. I will overcome my fears and phobia, bit by bit. (Shall not name them here)

10. Regarding behaving like a lady, ... dont intend to work on this yet

11. I will learn to cook and takecare of people. (Do be patience and give me some time..)

12. My outfits .. im not sure about this yet ..

13. I will die trying.

14. I will learn to reject.

15. I will give even more to people whom I treasure.

16. I will make my life meaningful.

17. Have more faith in myself.

18. Study hard.

19. I will be the one that even people who hate me, need me eventually.

20. Enough of the xiaojie piqi.

21. I be strong.

22. Be successful.

23. Make unfortunate and hurtful events as a life lessons and overcome it.

24. Appreciate everything, no matter how positive or negative it can be.

25.  Grit my teeth, bear the pain and move on.

To be continued..

I am very serious about this and I mean it. I will do it and I will die trying.
Let me fall.
Guide me along.
Give me time and patience.
Do not spoonfeed me.
Be mean and harsh to me.
Do not compliment me when I have done well, do it in your heart.
Make sure I do not enjoy my life for now.
Do anything for my own good.
But, I just require one simple favour.
Never ever leave me, even when I insist or backfire.

Trust me that I do not mean it hidden deep inside when your good intentions are backfired.
I'll work hard, give me time.
I just need to know that I really do matter to you, in your heart.

-' Directed to people whom I love and treasure, those who make efforts to keep me in their lives.

i will die trying , but does anyone understands ?

I totally got no motivation to finish my 10k words report ...

damn...
zzzz

If i were to finish it , who is willing to reward me ?

I think about roller coaster and "travelling" on the sea right now so desperately .

been stress for far way too long . i have like no tolerance level alr .