Now you know the reasons to certain things to why i choose not to give chances and be real stubborn.
Not that im selfish or self-centred.
I love myself and wanna do the best out of my life.
Wednesday, March 7
Book Quote 3
"Most of us don't know how to be nice to ourselves. We shoot ourselves down for not being perfect. We hate ourselves because we're not pretty enough or skinny enough. We're hard on ourselves if we don't get top marks or are not picked for the netball team. Sometimes we are our own worst enemy.
The only excuse for being so tough on yourself is because you have low self-esteem. YOU have already decided that you're so unimportant."
The only excuse for being so tough on yourself is because you have low self-esteem. YOU have already decided that you're so unimportant."
Book Quote 2
"I'm convinced that it's all about believing in yourself, and that's why it's so important to respect yourself."
After all, until you believe in yourself you won't have the confidence to fulfill your ambitions, speak up for your beliefs, make good of your dreams, and end up with the boyfriend of your choice"
You choose your fate.
Don't ever allow others (example: parents, teachers) to dictate your future. Telling you what you should do, what you ought to do and had you convinced to give up your dreams and what you inspired to be. *Doesn't apply to all situations :3
After all, until you believe in yourself you won't have the confidence to fulfill your ambitions, speak up for your beliefs, make good of your dreams, and end up with the boyfriend of your choice"
You choose your fate.
Don't ever allow others (example: parents, teachers) to dictate your future. Telling you what you should do, what you ought to do and had you convinced to give up your dreams and what you inspired to be. *Doesn't apply to all situations :3
Book Quote 1
"We were so busy in believing what everyone said about us that we forgot who we really were.
Most importantly, we forget how to respect ourselves and our opinions."
Most importantly, we forget how to respect ourselves and our opinions."
:3
Bought a toy harmonica today LOLLLLLLLLLLLLL
but idk how to play it LOLLLLLLLLLLLL
tml got time then i learn and be lame HEHEHHEH
but idk how to play it LOLLLLLLLLLLLL
tml got time then i learn and be lame HEHEHHEH
Monday, March 5
naiseeeeeeeeeeeeee !
sashaxoxo.com
wahhhh ! this blogshop clothes fking chio and i especially like the dress section LOLLL
but cannot anyhow spendd $$ );
I'll jus wait till april :3
wahhhh ! this blogshop clothes fking chio and i especially like the dress section LOLLL
but cannot anyhow spendd $$ );
I'll jus wait till april :3
Saturday, March 3
HOW true is this ?
What's the difference between a woman with pms and a terrorist?
You can negotiate with the terrorist.
:|
You can negotiate with the terrorist.
:|
无理之愁；非需理而愈
- I have found that anger inevitably seems to be conjoined with emotional investment… And that makes you suffer." Astrid Farnsworth (FRINGE)
For me, I don't know how did i do it or since when, but my anger seems to be able to convert to sadness.
And I would always cry because I'm angry.
I can't be easily angry, hardly seen.
Since when I was really young, I have already told and brainwash myself,
being angry is really pointless.
Whats more important are that things are done to salvage the situation.
And if i cant succeed, I will also cry.
Probably that's why bah.
When I was young, I hated no one. Even now.
I couldn't hate anyone no matter how much they disappoint me because.
There is a far way greater "thing" that I always hated in my heart.
Else, are just "sesame green bean" stuffs that I could not be bothered about.
I could tolerate a lot things for the things and experiences at my age to take the relevant nonsense.
I hide a lot of things not because I am afraid i might be betrayed.
I feel a lot of things are unneeded to share, everyone has their own life to care about.
I feel more comfortable with things in my heart, more securities.
whenever i trying to rebel, trying to voice my views and opinions,
i was shut off immediately and saying I cannot “顶嘴”,
I have no say. Nobody feels me when I was young and lend me their listening ears.
I have to engulf all my pains and thoughts within myself.
I know everyone will go through something like mine, but I am really an obedient child.
And i needed someone to talk to, very often. Esp those, who i valued and respected a lot, the "adults" that chided me.
I dont like more troubles, bringing more unhappiness and I swear I was really, really really a very obedient child.
I dont know why but I think I am still one, right now (:
- 千里之行﹐始於足下。
Have I not been trying..? Have I not move even a bit ..?
- 不患人之不己知，患不知人也。
I should be stop being self-centered, hoping others would know, understand and appreciate me.
I should jolly well get the idea of the world is evolve ard me, and not the otherwise.
My facebook pic,
But do you want to bear a hatred and be unhappy forever in your own life? Just a least, "TRY" to think positively.
Try, even a little i mean. If not, your life given by your parents are simply wasted because you live a sad, hated life with sorrowful vengeance.
Whats the point of internal struggling within yourself the whole life when you will die one fine day?
You said, Im still young, I know nothing.
Do I not have things I very much hated to do in my life since young before?
Do I not, may i ask?
I did whine, cry, rebel and everything. Yes i admit i hated, yet at the same time, I think positively.
It's really hurtful, really, really very much painful to the core.
It tore me into countless pieces and made me a failed person.
I know what benefits I could get, I know who i can satisfy my results with (but not appreciated on the surface), but still hated terribly much till I really wanna give up umpteen times, really many times.
And may I repeat once again, "I know life is tough, hard, terrible struggling, suffocating. we all do know."
Though I really hated it to the core, I still have to think positively.
And if i do not, how do I managed move till this far?
I wonder who thinks like me when I posted that.
For me, I don't know how did i do it or since when, but my anger seems to be able to convert to sadness.
And I would always cry because I'm angry.
I can't be easily angry, hardly seen.
Since when I was really young, I have already told and brainwash myself,
being angry is really pointless.
Whats more important are that things are done to salvage the situation.
And if i cant succeed, I will also cry.
Probably that's why bah.
When I was young, I hated no one. Even now.
I couldn't hate anyone no matter how much they disappoint me because.
There is a far way greater "thing" that I always hated in my heart.
Else, are just "sesame green bean" stuffs that I could not be bothered about.
I could tolerate a lot things for the things and experiences at my age to take the relevant nonsense.
I hide a lot of things not because I am afraid i might be betrayed.
I feel a lot of things are unneeded to share, everyone has their own life to care about.
I feel more comfortable with things in my heart, more securities.
And that I dont have to bother people with my nonsense.
But I know it's damn unhealthy... lol..
recalling back when i was young, I was really goddamn obedient.
But I know it's damn unhealthy... lol..
recalling back when i was young, I was really goddamn obedient.
whenever i trying to rebel, trying to voice my views and opinions,
i was shut off immediately and saying I cannot “顶嘴”,
and that I simple gave no respect to elderly when i really really do give them tons.
I have no say. Nobody feels me when I was young and lend me their listening ears.
I have to engulf all my pains and thoughts within myself.
I know everyone will go through something like mine, but I am really an obedient child.
And i needed someone to talk to, very often. Esp those, who i valued and respected a lot, the "adults" that chided me.
I dont like more troubles, bringing more unhappiness and I swear I was really, really really a very obedient child.
I dont know why but I think I am still one, right now (:
- 千里之行﹐始於足下。
Have I not been trying..? Have I not move even a bit ..?
- 不患人之不己知，患不知人也。
I should be stop being self-centered, hoping others would know, understand and appreciate me.
I should jolly well get the idea of the world is evolve ard me, and not the otherwise.
My facebook pic,
regarding: Work like you dont need the money, love like you have never been hurt before does not.
Actually I do not literally mean to work like you dont need the money.
That shows the surface message with shallow thoughts.
Its about conveying a msg,
I know life is tough, hard, terrible struggling, suffocating. We all do know.
Actually I do not literally mean to work like you dont need the money.
That shows the surface message with shallow thoughts.
Its about conveying a msg,
I know life is tough, hard, terrible struggling, suffocating. We all do know.
But do you want to bear a hatred and be unhappy forever in your own life? Just a least, "TRY" to think positively.
Try, even a little i mean. If not, your life given by your parents are simply wasted because you live a sad, hated life with sorrowful vengeance.
Whats the point of internal struggling within yourself the whole life when you will die one fine day?
You said, Im still young, I know nothing.
Do I not have things I very much hated to do in my life since young before?
Do I not, may i ask?
I did whine, cry, rebel and everything. Yes i admit i hated, yet at the same time, I think positively.
It's really hurtful, really, really very much painful to the core.
It tore me into countless pieces and made me a failed person.
I know what benefits I could get, I know who i can satisfy my results with (but not appreciated on the surface), but still hated terribly much till I really wanna give up umpteen times, really many times.
And may I repeat once again, "I know life is tough, hard, terrible struggling, suffocating. we all do know."
Though I really hated it to the core, I still have to think positively.
And if i do not, how do I managed move till this far?
And for goodness sake, its a decade of unhappiness and struggle, (plus do take in an account of my age). A decade in my age..
For that, i became really introvert. Till i start to learn again and overcome.
But the differences aren't huge.
But the differences aren't huge.
I wonder who thinks like me when I posted that.
❣
There are only two type of extreme important days to me that I hold in high regards,
My birthday & my favorite day.
My birthday & my favorite day.
My favorite day - Just any day that I spent with you.
❤
Friday, March 2
Stitch.
Oh yes,
I could write a first person recount story telling already, just like a curious incident of the dog in the night-time, with such emotional plot of mine.
I could write a first person recount story telling already, just like a curious incident of the dog in the night-time, with such emotional plot of mine.
Gonna go out and pass dickson his fuckyea shirt alr.
Wednesday, February 29
How random can i be ?
You have a horrible, evil creature living within you.
But on that representative front of yours, you sure do portray an angelic persona, mister.
And same goes for you madam.
When one climbed his way back up silently, with painful sorrow and burning desire for revenge while gritting his teeth,
It will be sweet, honey (:
But on that representative front of yours, you sure do portray an angelic persona, mister.
And same goes for you madam.
When one climbed his way back up silently, with painful sorrow and burning desire for revenge while gritting his teeth,
It will be sweet, honey (:
Monday, February 27
"There is no such thing as a good girl. A good girl is just a bad girl who hasn't been caught yet."
"We stopped checking for monsters under our bed, when we realized they were inside us."
Friday, February 17
Internship presentation weird qns that i could recall
1. Why do you have to put pie-charts instead of other charts like bar charts?
: (duhh, that was my requirement as i have stated in my previous slides and i was told to make pie-charts -.-)
2. Where did you find your researched information from?
: (-.-" duhh .....)
: (duhh, that was my requirement as i have stated in my previous slides and i was told to make pie-charts -.-)
2. Where did you find your researched information from?
: (-.-" duhh .....)
Saturday, January 28
cramp agn .
i dont wanna see anyone anymore
dont wanna get anymore unreachable hopes
hah .
i feel like a joke
yea .
i think i soon having depression uh .
or it must be my moodswing .
lol
wtfux
can i lose touch with everything n be in my own world ..?
probably learnt too much things ..
probably bottled up too many things ..
it me who gave up things around me
so i will bear the aftermath .
i think im having a real fever .
who would care .
yea right .. for all the things i've done , still expecting concern like as if i deserve much
sigh .
i need a real hard slapping words on me .
dont wanna get anymore unreachable hopes
hah .
i feel like a joke
yea .
i think i soon having depression uh .
or it must be my moodswing .
lol
wtfux
can i lose touch with everything n be in my own world ..?
probably learnt too much things ..
probably bottled up too many things ..
it me who gave up things around me
so i will bear the aftermath .
i think im having a real fever .
who would care .
yea right .. for all the things i've done , still expecting concern like as if i deserve much
sigh .
i need a real hard slapping words on me .
down .
what is my happiness ? .. when my sadness chased everyone off .
..
..
what am i doing now .
i shall get motivated alr .
should nt get emotional alr .
im letting myself down .
..
..
what am i doing now .
i shall get motivated alr .
should nt get emotional alr .
im letting myself down .
);
k . i dont have the same frequency with people around me .
im always .
the one
so uniquely thinking about other things
or always catch no balls ..
im always .
the one
so uniquely thinking about other things
or always catch no balls ..
Tuesday, January 24
Tell me, that you are beside me, supporting me yea ..
I have not made any 2012 resolutions yet because I have the whole year time to think about it.
And i have thought of some things now.
1. I will be more sensible.
2. Enough of the acting cute, acting favourable, acting bhb, etc (unless needed or to people whom I feel secure and safe.)
3. I will work hard, and extra hard in anything I do.
4. I will definitely not let myself down, and my loved ones too.
5. Enough of my laziness and procrastinating.
6. I will strive and be determined towards my goals.
7. I will work hard to make even that little changes to the world.
8. I will do things in a manner and behave myself to earn respect.
9. I will overcome my fears and phobia, bit by bit. (Shall not name them here)
10. Regarding behaving like a lady, ... dont intend to work on this yet
11. I will learn to cook and takecare of people. (Do be patience and give me some time..)
12. My outfits .. im not sure about this yet ..
13. I will die trying.
14. I will learn to reject.
15. I will give even more to people whom I treasure.
16. I will make my life meaningful.
17. Have more faith in myself.
18. Study hard.
19. I will be the one that even people who hate me, need me eventually.
20. Enough of the xiaojie piqi.
21. I be strong.
22. Be successful.
23. Make unfortunate and hurtful events as a life lessons and overcome it.
24. Appreciate everything, no matter how positive or negative it can be.
25. Grit my teeth, bear the pain and move on.
To be continued..
I am very serious about this and I mean it. I will do it and I will die trying.
Let me fall.
Guide me along.
Give me time and patience.
Do not spoonfeed me.
Be mean and harsh to me.
Do not compliment me when I have done well, do it in your heart.
Make sure I do not enjoy my life for now.
Do anything for my own good.
But, I just require one simple favour.
Never ever leave me, even when I insist or backfire.
Trust me that I do not mean it hidden deep inside when your good intentions are backfired.
I'll work hard, give me time.
I just need to know that I really do matter to you, in your heart.
-' Directed to people whom I love and treasure, those who make efforts to keep me in their lives.
And i have thought of some things now.
1. I will be more sensible.
2. Enough of the acting cute, acting favourable, acting bhb, etc (unless needed or to people whom I feel secure and safe.)
3. I will work hard, and extra hard in anything I do.
4. I will definitely not let myself down, and my loved ones too.
5. Enough of my laziness and procrastinating.
6. I will strive and be determined towards my goals.
7. I will work hard to make even that little changes to the world.
8. I will do things in a manner and behave myself to earn respect.
9. I will overcome my fears and phobia, bit by bit. (Shall not name them here)
10. Regarding behaving like a lady, ... dont intend to work on this yet
11. I will learn to cook and takecare of people. (Do be patience and give me some time..)
12. My outfits .. im not sure about this yet ..
13. I will die trying.
14. I will learn to reject.
15. I will give even more to people whom I treasure.
16. I will make my life meaningful.
17. Have more faith in myself.
18. Study hard.
19. I will be the one that even people who hate me, need me eventually.
20. Enough of the xiaojie piqi.
21. I be strong.
22. Be successful.
23. Make unfortunate and hurtful events as a life lessons and overcome it.
24. Appreciate everything, no matter how positive or negative it can be.
25. Grit my teeth, bear the pain and move on.
To be continued..
I am very serious about this and I mean it. I will do it and I will die trying.
Let me fall.
Guide me along.
Give me time and patience.
Do not spoonfeed me.
Be mean and harsh to me.
Do not compliment me when I have done well, do it in your heart.
Make sure I do not enjoy my life for now.
Do anything for my own good.
But, I just require one simple favour.
Never ever leave me, even when I insist or backfire.
Trust me that I do not mean it hidden deep inside when your good intentions are backfired.
I'll work hard, give me time.
I just need to know that I really do matter to you, in your heart.
-' Directed to people whom I love and treasure, those who make efforts to keep me in their lives.
Sunday, January 8
i will die trying , but does anyone understands ?
I totally got no motivation to finish my 10k words report ...
damn...
zzzz
If i were to finish it , who is willing to reward me ?
I think about roller coaster and "travelling" on the sea right now so desperately .
been stress for far way too long . i have like no tolerance level alr .
damn...
zzzz
If i were to finish it , who is willing to reward me ?
I think about roller coaster and "travelling" on the sea right now so desperately .
been stress for far way too long . i have like no tolerance level alr .
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