Let's just say I am not doing pretty good now and with all the bad lucks that I had accumulated falling straight right on me at a go this month.
It's time for me to slow down and brainstorm on my future instead of letting my life pass wastefully or routinely.
Goal setting, 10 years from now.
(Health, finance, career, studies, relationship with people, interests/hobbies - some pointers to guide me writing continuously as this post will still undergo thorough updates even when publicised.)
Academic -
Currently, I've just started my university life in SIM for more than 2 months.
As a polytechnic graduate, whose course doesn't have pretty much linked to my university course, I do admit I am struggling with my studies.
My tests results are far way too apart from my expectations that I have for myself. I was pretty upset, no I am. It was also peer pressure that lead me to my devastation within my inner self. UOL isn't like RMIT, NUS or other universities, in which my results are purely 100% based on the final year examinations.
And this attracts pretty much JC students, as it gave a familiarised study "lifestyle", unlike a poly one.
In year 1, I have Maths, Statistics, Economics, Banking&Finance, and Principal of Accounting.
The first three subjects that I mentioned are really peanuts to them for they have them in their JC and their A-levels standards are pretty much more tougher.
However, this doesn't stop me learning and pushing myself.
I love studying, I love my course. And I know, it's always not about comparing with others, it's about comparing/fighting with yourself, the biggest enemy.
But sometimes, we got to look at the point-of-view from the society requirements and standards in order to push ourselves further.
My results for the test came back to me. They were .. too low and far away from what I expect of myself.
But I'll still buck up, for myself.
In fact, I have already knew I will not be doing well initially, thus, I have been crashing my friends' lectures to learn more. And of course, some lecturers will chase off so, that's too bad for me.
I tried, I revise but I know I am still not working hard enough for the "society standards".
Goal:
I'll continue to revise, I'll work hard. I'll make sure I'll be proud of myself in 3 years time when I graduated.
And after that, if I have interest more towards accounting than finance, I'll take ACCA. (Most probably not)
Finance interests -
I am very interested in finance market, stocks, investments etc. But I don't know how do I go about it now because I am still pursuing my studies and building my fundamentals on this sector.
Goal:
I will start reading more finance related stuffs, get myself more closer to this area and be very successful in the finance industry extra earning money in other areas on top of my salary.
Piano "interests" -
I've skipped two lessons, in which I've not done it previously. The so-called "rebel".
I flunked my studies, I wasn't really being appreciated for working hard in my piano physically, may I emphasize again, physically in a direct way, for years.
I, therefore, find no meaning, no aim, to continue.
It was too meaningless to continue something that is some, to what I feel, to be redundant and not helpful for my future.
I completely do not have the motivation and because all along, I wasn't doing for myself. Now that I feel I lost my motive to continue, because my motivation, that I have been forcefully working hard for without rewards, isn't watching/appreciating me at all in this aspect.
But I have a twist of my mind, after my piano teacher called me up.
I have another aim. It wasn't pretty easy to change my childhood aim to another. (I can't really explain myself for this sentence and I know it's confusing.)
I have already tried and forced myself to start my grade 8 book. it's already 1/3. It's not me to just dump things just like that. Let me explain further. If I were to throw it now, then why do I start the book in the first place when I know that I will dump it halfway?
It is because I know, I know that I will try. I will do it. I will do it even if I fail badly. I will grab this responsibility and shoulder it. It's pretty hard to explain this thinking but here's my goal.
Goal:
My goal isn't fully on doing for others now. It's now partially change to complete learning the grade 8 book.
I found my aim, my meaning to continue.
I know, that I definitely will fail this. But it doesn't matter because, my goal is to complete the book before February.
Yea, I do know that in other words, I am planning to fail. But passing isn't my aim.
Other interests + goal -
I would like to learn unicycling and swimming. enough said.
To be continued..
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