Wednesday, October 28

Be awake & stop chasing the wrong things . Learn to appreciate and give your love .

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All the world live in 2 tents :
“Content makes poor men rich; discontent makes rich men poor.” - Benjamin Franklin

To what extend do you agree to this ?
Well , i agree TTM .

i believe that one must appreciate what they have now and seek contentment .
Those that are too greedy , not applying to money only , are sinners imho .

Taking money as an illustration .
With contentment , you wouldn't go around splurging money on unnecessary things .
That's why you will save up money which makes " poor men rich " .

With discontentment , which usually comes with the fatal word " greed " , makes one unable to appreciate what he has now , keeping himself to his world . Not only that , he will seems unsatisfied and miserable , which may lead to doing some underhand means to get himself satisfied without realising that what he did may hurt his closest ones ( relationship with others involved ) . Like having a lawsuit with own family members for the assets .

Not wanting something sometimes is as good as having something .
Think about that .

Most people are just not contented with themselves .
they just want more and more .
but of course , this does not apply to education .
they just don't realise what they are doing and appreciate what they have now .
And ended up hurting either themselves or their surrounding people .

i know this is stupid ,
but i believe everyone has a definite amount of things that they should have/own , imho .
For instance , when i gain more than what i should have , i will lose something else somewhere in some point of my life ( could be decades later ) .
Be it money or concerning about relationship , there will be a certain amount of one should have .
ridiculous beliefs right ~

But whatever it is , it makes me and constantly remind me not to be a greedy person .

Since young , my mom taught me to be gracious ( such as telling me i should not be stingy , like giving presents to friends or treating them meals ) , but idk .. im just too shy to initiate D;

Talking about that .
ima shy person . ( don't puke cuz im serious )
:p


So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning. - Morrie Schwartz


Sometimes , it's hard to find what our purposes really are in life .

...

But maybe you can start of with a simple sense of awareness .
Be conscious to your surroundings and the people around you .
They may be obvious , & some are obscure .
idk ~ may be could start off with ,
what others compliment you on , what excites and draws your attention , what you enjoy doing , who do you really care for , who do you really don't want to lose and then slowly work on it ?

i don't know what is my purpose .
What is my purpose i asked myself . No return answer . Or maybe , i just can't be bothered and let nature take its course .

But i know sometimes our past makes us what we are today , not apply to all condition :P

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I asked myself again , " What are the three most important things in my life ? "
For me , they are health , happiness and love ( relationship with family & friends , even strangers to an extend of a small amount only ) . These are tangible things that money cannot buy .

Then followed by things such as food , wisdom , appearance , fresh air , home , money , success , honesty , compassion , attitude , perseverance , trust , honesty , fun .. well i can think of many with no terms of importance :p

Well , whatever .
im not implying im not greedy or whatsoever angelic person i am in this post .
keeping everything in moderation and to appreciate the things i have now is what i want to constantly remind myself of (especially my family) .
What's yours is yours , what's not yours ... you can try grabbing it ? but i believe in fate .
If it doesn't belong to you , you can never get it no matter how hard you've tried .

With contentment , i believe i will be a happier person (:

Monday, October 26

Another start of a new week ! ;D

In 1st lesson now ,
hmm .

i think i needa start planning && stop sleeping at 4++am . D;
cuz i've been losing concentration now D;

Sunday, October 25

Magnanimous . ♥

Title:
The poem of narrow-minded low-class barbarian ( it doesn't pay to be uneducated ; where are your manners ? Enraged poem(i) ) .

inherit velocity ,
manifest ferocity .
as i destroyed(acted) ,
foolishly .

it's either me ,
and never be you ,
will be one ,
to ascend the throne(winner) .

but no way ,
as i ranted unknowingly ,
will i the future king ,
to surrender ,
and shape a single way(chance) for you .

you will collapse ,
begging for mercy ,
dragged into the darkness of failure ,
and kneel down before me .

i am not pressurized .
i am not infuriated .
and neither am i provoked by ,
a small-fry like you .

I , will be the utmost king ,
ruling this (lame)tribe .
behold & rise ,
at the almighty king .
"Fear me"
©

hmm , done it in quick rush of 30mins .
i tried thinking of how to bring out the ranting expression by making the stances longer ,
but failed though . nevermind .
need to rush to meet friend , i think i will be awesomely late .
will edit if im free later on ? [80% i will not continue]

The horoscope of general Libra , is that they do not stand on any side ; neutral .
As you can see from the picture of Libra , (any form of) a weighing scale .
im born like that as i side no one .

[ If you understand , everything here , is like a metaphors , 61 hidden meanings , even after the poem ]

1st week of school past so slow O:!

Recent minor dispute in tagboard ,
i didn't join in because i don't want to make things worst . ( hope so )
but since it's my tagboard , i have the rights to comment & have a say .



My bestie is just tryin' to tell me that she saw my ex with his current gf in the 1st tag.
Like any other girls , even i myself , when i saw my friends i would tell my other friends that i saw them if all of us know one another sometimes too . !
And i believe everyone does that occasionally . ~

Like those long lost friends, i would want to know how has he been doing right, since it's been like so long . So i smsed bestie on more about him . (FYI , i don't love him anymore . But being just like any other friends asking normally . Just in case there is misunderstanding . )

Girls do like to gossip , no doubts for guys too . But she was merely telling me from what she saw , not badmouthing or what .

This is all about our simple conversation , then .

The conversation arose with those words used , "MYB" & "auntie" .
Not many girls would love to be called auntie by someone they don't know well .
I believe Passerby had built up the tension in bestie .
Im just using my literature referencing skills .

I did not badmouth anything about my ex .
i remember telling my friends those touching things he did to me .
And the only thing i said something that was not pleasing was the fact that he only tell me the "truth" after break , only to closest friends . ( because they cared and i don't lie to them )
& everytime i said it , i would cry hard , which was in the past .
The fact that i initiated the break is also known to others ; not a secret .
i did not keep it to myself , therefore , i think there is a misunderstanding somewhere .

If you know me well , you will know i do not backstab people & saying something bad that aren't true . (well , but i do gossips FACTS :p)

Up to you to believe . (:





The part whereby bloghopper joined in .
He/She started by replying to bestie, "why are you so vulgar? when others didn't even scold you?"
It may be the same person or a close relation to passerby , i don't know and don't care .
Just that i feel a little injustice for that conversation .
It started of , as i mention , my bestie telling me how well has he been and his status now .
Doesn't all best friends keep a lookout for one another ? Unless you don't have a true one ?

And with "MYB" and "auntie" , things arose .

im not implying that passerby started the dispute .
i could also understand how passerby feels as he/she is being spoken of .
but isn't this the conversation between me and my bestie ? & it's my blog .
There are many ways of conversation , it's just one of the ways she used to interact with me since she couldn't use her handphone to communicate & doesn't have facebook/blog or whatsoever .






Not really to shoot anyone or whatsoever , just an interesting memory to jot it down for my future references to look back at .
Not reminiscing too , just that i have mild STM , serious . & sometimes i find it fun to read my past :D
For the world , people study history to improve the future, amend mistakes and try not to do it again .
Same logic for me :P

But i still have to thank those that take in effort to even tag me .
Thanks Bestie , andy , jin bao & especially leesheng . (:
i appreciate that you all try to protect me :D


My ffs 1st maxed on 22 oct , 1am :D


Hees , Great big thanks too everyone who bought me :D

i lazy post pics about my presents liao laa , so long le LOLLS !

Presents: (idk if senders wished to be known so i'll just type initials of names)
Tako-yaki bestie : (disclosed , no one deserves to know :P , done by cross-stitching & its urberly cute ! x3)
GLS : 3 stitches (additional 3 small stitches given not for bday LOLS ! They are all different and darn cute canns ! :DD )
ASZF,LJS,DH: White Headphone ! :D Its niceeeee ! cuz i love WHITE ! hees ~
KL: Pinkpink pirate piggy ! heeeees ! zhuzhu !
YB: Dolly ! soo huggable X:
HYX: Punchyy Plushy ! :DDDD heees !





Dolly is so abusable , this is how she looks like when angry with a smile on her face ,



haaas , !



Supermarket before bbq , i wasn't choosing and taking the things, i was just pushing & playing around because i don't know how to choose the right ones lOlls ! X:



Me applying dam lots of butter , serious ! X:
Evil ying yi :P


but i don't know who ate it LMAOS ! X:

At Yuki Yaki ! :DD
I grab lots and lots of different flavoured BEEEEF !
x3x3 lovesloves ! :DD



After that we had our fried icecream and all for $12~$14 forget le LOL

Oh , not to forget ..



?!?!

Hees ! ^^

Sunday, October 11

these few days in a real messed . hope will return to normal soon .

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Gees, dad probably saw me weeping thus asked me stay in sg ytd :\\

yeaa , so im in sg -.-"

been telling my friends tat im busy on sat . D;
not telling reason .
but when i found out that im free le (so last minute notice) , didn't inform friends X:

budden ,
watched Sorority Row in Cathy Cineleisure .
hmm . X:
not scary but i don't know why am i so frightened -.-"
nehmindds , dont wanna talk about it :P

still no time to take presents pics X:
soonsoon alrights :P

gonna have fi03 bbq later ,
& going supermarket to buy with chynna n laila ._.
yawns . :\\

lazy post more , but to sum it up .
xiaoshenqshenq pei me out & treat movies and all stuffs .
hmm ..
yuebao . gave a surprise . yea .. && he succeeded, grats -.-

i wan no more surprises ! rawrrrrrrs !
hope tml got none , but heard there is . -.-"
going have heart att soon , reeal soon -.-



Breakfast . ?



One of my lunch cook by maid LOLLS ~








Look at those red ants at my hse downstair . !
omfgg ! hope they cant crawl their way up 24th floor D;



my bruise , it has been with me like .. idk almost 1wk ?



my every week's fruits ( forced to eat )

will type a better post next time, now veh tired plus ltr waking up at 7 & returning home at ard 11 .
zzzz !

uhh .
just a note for myself ,

[ earliest - latest ]
smsed .
andysoh lamer, jiahe(r), bryan, leesheng sweety, aiksiang, jw kor, zhixiong darling di , jinbao[405 our promise! (:], ouyeong, andrewkoh, mummy, jiayi bestie, huiqin, huiwen bestie, aloysius, lijun, russell, zachary bestie, kanglin beloved, dazheng tako-yaki bestie, qihao, jianhong, jaryl .

fb .
andysoh[1st as usual], jiahe[always top 5 earliest], junwei, bryan, mingseng, jeremiah, melvin, Desmond ng, yong chuen, nathaniel ghui, leesheng, ci en, emilio, nicholas chung, jefred, hongling, kenneth ang, dillion, labound, zi mou, jessica liaw, sarah, jeremy loh, quiz, chynna, yong jie, nurul, gavin, han wee, ying ting, camilia darling, xinyu mei, nathaniel loy, ramesh, stanley, aileen, jin bao, gabriel .

msn .
jiahe, shifu, hongling, yiu hong, penghong, gengde, rachel, jeremy loh, yongjie, zhengkang, xuejun, weixun, camilia darling, l.jiasheng, jansen, jianhong .

phone .
yue bao, yuping, zhixiong darling di, dazheng bestie, kanglin . (don't rmb anymore)

Friday, October 9

There is a saying that goes like this . Nobody really cares if you’re miserable, so you might as well be happy.

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I have this simple wish, to mark the day with my loved ones .

My hopes crash .

Last year couldnt celebrate my birthday because it's graduation ceremony .
schooling from morninq till afternoon & grad.ceremony from evening till night .
at least my former class did sing a loud happy bday song to me (:

but the fact it's wasted just like tat on the actual day sucks .

isn't it everyone wishes to celebrate with people whom they truly love ?
friends can bring you a smile, but loved ones can bring genuine happiness .

i want family & tyb for my birthday, not presents which they give .
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tyb never forget when's my birthday when asked, but it just happened that my birthday will slipped off her mind .
not a single wish last year on actual day ,
couldnt accompany me cause she got something on this year on actual day .
hurts me alot cause i really hope every year she could be mine on my birthday .
i yearn & hope , yearn & hope .
fate ba .
i love her . & i know she loves me too .

My mum's sister aka aunt passed away few hours ago .
off to malaysia tml .
my mum probably too sad to celebrate .
i think im too self-centered .
people died & i still expect to have my birthday celebrated .
but i dont like the idea of being alone on my special day .
i dont like the idea of having the celebration postponed to some other days .
that would make it meaningless already .
sighs .
this sucks .

i don't think i've got the mood to go for my sec&poly class gathering on fri&sun .

i think ima spoilt brat bahhs .
got spoilt of getting presents & having a marvellous day on my birthday .
so i tend to expected it every year .

well ,
never mind .
i've good a great birthday this year .
&& it's to celebrate it in funeral in a country not belong to me .

i'll never forget friends who try to snatch the 1st position to wish my on the actual day .
i remember everyone of them .
darn cute canns , && they would say things like " aiyaa , i thought im the 1st . who's that idiot who wish you 1st"
lol .

having swollen eyes ..
i'll find someday whereby im emotionally stable && will upload the presents i receive bahhs .

im brave . i shall stop crying .
im obedient too , for i accompany my mum to bid the last farewell to her sis .

i shall always be an obedient girl .