What's the point of playing ,
when i don't have any real life friends playing with me since few months back .
What's the point of playing ,
when i don't even have much online friends playing with me .
What's the point of playing ,
when people dc-ed and never come back in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when kids have to go bed and forced to shutdown com in midst of soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when gamers in lan shop have to leave in midst of soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when people said , I msging my gf/bf and afk most of the time in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when there are frequent leavers , dc-ers, laggers and trollers in most games in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when there are 2 aps in mid and both die together when laning in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when people play weird meta like , eg all melees , yet don't have the capabilities to handle and troll in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when Vietnamese refused to speak in English when politely asked in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when people instalock, being confident intiatlly and fed enemies in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when carries aren't hitting the correct targets during engage in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when jungler pinged to help, giving false hopes, and decided to turn back to counter jungle while both btm died in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when people loves to troll frequently in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when people aren't being friendly, talking nicely to one another and guiding in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when actual LoL garena community in soloQs aren't mature , disrespectful , loves to condemn one another in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when I started friendly chats , and friendssssssssssssss bascially ignored me.
What's the point of playing ,
when people does not understand about having fun is more important than virtual achievements.
What's the point of playing ,
when I tried to start friendly conversations during games , trying to bring down the tension yet people just want to win and condemn others in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when soloQs are about co-ordinating with people whom you have never played before.
What's the point of playing ,
when the match-making aren't fair even in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when 3 straight games are matching up against the same premade 4/5 opponents in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when I know I am not that heavy , and requested people to carry me but no avail .
What's the point of playing ,
when you are alone.
What's the point of playing ,
when I am always open for guidance , willing to learn and yet nobody gives you any chance to show.
What's the point of playing ,
when you can carry , with your hidden best champion and owning , yet others are too heavy in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when you can carry , with your hidden best champion and owning , yet others just give up hopes and surrender in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when you know enemy laners have buffs , fed and yet your underleveled carry is being overly aggresive in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when you play your best in every games , yet nobody knows in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when you don't deserve to receive such treatment regarding dc-ers , laggers , trollers in all straight games of a particular day in soloQs.
What's the point of playing ,
when your guyfriends aren't playing with you and girlfriends aren't interested.
What's the point of playing ,
if you are playing soloQs games alone for months.
What's the point of playing ,
when you have no friends willing to play with you.
What's the point of playing ,
when your friends ignore you.
What's the point of playing ,
when you are alone.
I'm definitely not done yet .
definitely not with list continues on.
Tried to consistently psycho-ing myself.
every games.
to cheer up.
to smile :)
I am calm and cool.
I am satisfied with myself.
and I will always cheer up.
I will.
Because nobody loves to be with a person with unhappy aura.
I will. cheer up.
Because I am a happy girl.
Because I don't need sympathy. I definitely do not need short-term concerns.
& a smile cost nothing :)
So who does really appreciate me.?
It's pretty simple to do , i know .
So the point would follow to who does really take the effort to stay in my life ?
I've seen .
I see .
I realised .
I am just ,
a timely entertainment , worthless and thrashed when used and done with my fun and innocence .
I am glad .
It's alrights .
Memories are what's more costly .
It's a happy ending , & I have no regrets . :D
It's actually liquid solution that I am holding onto.
Surfaced . love .
or an empty ♡ .
either way .
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