I'm so lost without you. Feeling lonely, scared & cold.

“Love can sometimes be magic.
But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion.”

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Nobody is there for me, when i needed someone ..

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i must be such a detestable freak who dont even deserve to be loved, even a slight drop of it ..

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my piece of sky has no colours , for the colours had ran away & vanished ..

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who would paint and draw rainbow to my sky ?

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Nobody.

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I totally deserve this.

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Totally.

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Let the rain of liquor flood the river of torture,
and drown me into the pool of sorrow..

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where i could see future with ,

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- no tomorrow -



Nobody is there for me, when i needed someone ..
Nobody is encouraging me anymore ..
Nobody knows how much i've fallen as soon as they let go of me ..
I am not strong anymore ..

The only image i see now,
is the scenario in the past whereby i was in the water,
so helplessly,
trying to go up the surface for air,
and nobody was there to save me.
i was at then crying in the water,
with my nose choked deep down in the water,
on the verge of dying.

I should do whatever i want to do, now.

Sick very badly .

Having a stomachache caused by food poisoning isnt enough ?

nao im having a seriously awful headache & feeling giddy ..

cant blog much .. feeling damn uncomfortable ..

wanna cry..

Stomachache damn badly..

I think i have food poisioning ..

really very terrible diarrhea since morning ... like whole day alr le ..

super uncomfortable and painful ...

Mood: Glad!(;

I rmb errison commenting on me, saying that i am so rich but the thing is i dont know how to doll myself up.
roflll ~~ he's absolutely right~ i really dont know how to doll myself up & im serious abt it T___T

sadsad~~ haisssss D;

but i've alr decided (from previous post)..
thou im not pretty or gorgeous,
i will learn to be elegant and bring out the charisma in me!! :3
hehehhehehehes!! so i'll be more self conscious alr :P

YOSHHHHHHH !!!!!! ~~~ XD

`gonna movie soon~~ damnnn embarrassed to go lurhs! but bo bian cuz gotta repay :3
@#$@%$^%$&^%*&^*&^(#$

ROFLLLLLLLLLLL!

An comment from friendSS :
Your tolerance and patience are really damn freaking gooooood!!

ROFLLLLLlLllll
well, nothing could made me angry :3 srsly,! even if i got backstabbed, two-timed, got cheated money, etc, i'll just think that its my fate & its also up to them on the way they want to treat me.
Still, no matter how much i got hurt, i'll still treat them as friends bcuz i really treasure relationship more than anything else.
I always believe in changes and the good side of the person.
If you know me really well, you would know that i am not bullshitting ^.^

SOOOOOOOO~~~
gotta keep up with the high tolerance & my awesomeeeeeeee patience level mannnxz!! XD


Till nao, im still saying "Thanks for playing(;" in LoL be it win or lose hees!
at 1st those friends that i played with felt weird lmaooos!
but im tryin be naise and have the sense of "sports"manship! :D
& of course bringing a more friendly community!! ;fuck those dota influences

i think my friendliness made me lots of friends and famous alr ~___~
i go whr also ppl know me and also hear my friends say that his friends(whom idk) know me and find me damn familiar wtFux! LOLOLLLL

HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAAA XD

YAWNS!* the sun in my life starts to rise ! XD

LOLLL tdy 1st time i actually touch a cigarette beforee ROFLLL~!!

a kind soul long ago told me that he really wans me to move on.
i was very relunctant at 1st .. really .. bcuz nothing can change my forever and love..

as time pass by, with that sentence continously flowing in my mind,
i think, its pointless and i should open up and follow what he wants me to do..
i never regret with him at all (:

so here i am, smiling away and looking forward towards a better future.
its indeed TRUE the rumors that quite a few people show interest in me and even confessed.

and i've decided to change myself!
to a better one, of course!

i'll be even more gentle and caring.
i wont want to cross my legs unnecessarily, i'll not be rough and have a better eating habits, etc!
I'll watch my behaviour very carefully and put on more makeups lolololollls!

i've realise quite a number of people know me LOLLLL which idky LOLLLL
like kind of a bit popular lolll but nehminds~

Gonna devour my durians alr ~ bwuahahhahaas !

ps. the jap food @ cathay i went tdy is freaking AWESOMEEEEEEEEEE !! ^.^
that i had really had many different kinds of foood to taste :D

Movie period ? lolollls x;

4 ppl asked me for movie after CT lmaoooos :3

x3LoveThis! ;D

It's the cataracs

Yo, Its that dancefloor - 808
She hit me like a 808
Have you all night, vodka straight
Bottles up, you and me
Me and you, on a trip
All night flight, girl lets dip
Lickin my lips im in the zone
And I cant really say what Im sippin on

But You taste good to me
Girls like you make history
Sure does sound like a hit to me
Now che-e-e-ck out this beat

-CHORUS-

Now, you got it
You got it goin on, goin on, & on &on &on &on
Boy you know you get me high
Wont you take me on a ride
Tell me where u want to go
Tell me where u want to go
Im your bonnie, you're my clyde
I'll be your "ride or die"

Tell me where you want to go
Tell me where you want to go

T-t-t-to the top of the worlddd (x2)

Your daddy must have been a drug dealer (why?)
Cause you dope
You the bonnie to my clyde, Juliet and romeo
Your daddy must have been a drug dealer (why?)
I don't know, im just saying anything to get me up inside your throat
Is it workin?
Im just playin
Man this bottle got me sayin
I don't ever wanna lose, lose ya right now

-CHORUS-

T-t-t-to the top of the worlddd
Tell me where you want to go (x4)
Where, you wanna, where you wanna go? (x4)
T-t-t-to the top of the worlddd
It's the cataracs

Tell me where you want to go Oooooooooooooooooooo :3

The Trust of Forever, is Over

Never go back to an old love no matter how strong it is .
For it will be like reading a book over and over again , when already knowing how it ends .

Then to say, i feel much better .

& with my FAAAAvourite word,
- ` AWESOMEEEEEEEE !!! ;DDDD

Im a nice girl, and i really mean it.

Even when everybody in the world starts to leave me,
and life has turned me upside down real badly,
I will stay strong and continue living,
just for that one person somewhere out there,
who will support and appreciate me ..

Strangers to friends, to best friends, to lovers, to rest, and back to stage one.

Its nt u v.demanding n attention seeking..its jus the way of ur talking..n yes babyy..u had been a v.good gf..jus the way of ur words..
18:54 4 April 2011