)):

Me has headacheheadache naoo... @!$#%$#^%&^*&^(

im not sick, but jus feeeling hot & heaty ):

I still feel veryvery heaty in my body...

howhowws... !
like going soon a week liaoo ?! ]:

drank liang cha, honey, vinegar and water etccccc

still veryvery heaty....
aircon doesnt work....

>:

♥

Loooong time no play tris sia ! XD
wondering if tris is a better champ than mf ? hmmm... or issit cuz of the champ compositions hmm..


im still feeling heaty... ):

MIRACLE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTS!
THIS IS REALLY MIRACLE MANXZXZXZ ~ !!
^__________^

SHIOOOOOOOOOOOOOK ~ !!

actually my piano teacher dont want me to take exam cuz she knows my standard cmi, but she wanna see miracle.. & yupps,
reeeealllly miracleeeee + sheer hardwork :3

nishishishishi ~~ XD

soooo, imma gonna start claiming all my rewards / ask for rewards from people already
HAA ! HAA ! HAA !

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYSSSSSSSSSSSS ~~~~

seems like i nvr let anyone down after all ^____________^
xiiaoYY can always do it ! XD

I dont wanna fall sick -.-

this morning im trying to get myself up for my piano lesson

i felt soo fatigued, very heaty and mind not working properly

i think i have "overexerted", having irregular weird slping times and not enough sleep

since ytd my body starts to heat up alot le

and really quite a number of friends are worrying about me ..

so..

yupps,

I will and gonna sleep early (like before 12?) for the sake of everybody, esp XX, pwince and myself!

ltr at 11+ i will start lying on my bed, hoping and forcing myself to sleep..
hope i can sleep irregardless of used to sleeping at my "usual, weird" hours

needa take care of my lungs, livers, kidneys, heart, brain and everything

yupsyups!

& tdy's piano lesson..

im reallyreally glad and touched

i've told my piano teacher, that .. i wanna continue.. when she asked abt what am i gonna do after my failed exam..

she said, continue wad ? (like tease me abit)
I said exams..
She said, even if Grade 6?
I said, yupps

but in the end, she asked me to go and buy Grade 8 piano pieces and scales...
i was..
veryvery shocked at the point of moment..

She.
has.
faith in me..

even when i failed her so badly...

she believes in me, believes that i have the capability..
i didnt.. expect that
for she is the kind of teacher,
who showed bad, mean and evil side of a teacher, that always made me cried and chided me terribly

she trusts and believes me, like how my mom, my closest friends, pwince, kor and bestie do...


there will be 3 songs as usual, but this time round, it will not be 2/3 pages per songs..
its, 8/9 pages per song..

such extreme high expectations (to me) of taking up a grade 8 is given to me, who has totally no interest in piano, no talent, fking hates piano, failed once, be such a disappointment and doing it for the sake of my mom for decade...

the more i should buck up, the more i will be determined to do it, and ..
the more i will put my heart and soul in achieving it.

come to think of it,
nobody said that i cant do it
nobody despised me
but its me,

it's me who gave up on myself..

so
i wont failed anyone who believes in me anymore,
i wanna show that i can be entrusted and shines brightly

i wanna have no regrets for i have too many regrets in my life.


i think, at that point of moment, i was too carried by my personal feelings and setback of losing my biggest love that i thought i have lost everything..

im so silly...

nehminds,
this time,
i will and must
never, & NEVER GIVE UP !!! ~  ^_^V

hehhs. !

k bahhs, im not feeling good physically nao actually,
tired, very heaty and lil giddy..
gonna take a nap.. hoping ltr before 12am can slp agn! >_<

~~~~~~~~~~~~

Wai i sho blur and gong tdy !$#@#$#^%$^%^&^%&

overslpt cuz see wrong timing, no time go bbdc, take mrt to colo till miss correct station, forget to take my friend's thumbdrive & left at colo, cannot concentrate playing at colo, see wrong timing for the movie with pwince, realised wrong movie seatings also *facepalm

damn blur lerrhs meeeeee D;

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

suaaaaaaaaa ~~

tml will be a gooood day outside ^_^
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
i wanna go jogging soooooooooooooooooooon ! or should i fix my bicycle ? hmmmm

me temporary sian of colouring liaooooxzxzx ~ i wanna go lib read some interesting booooooks ! XD


WIGGLE, WIGGLE, WIGGLE, WIGGLE, WIGGLE YEAH~ ....
I'm sexy and I know it .....   :3

Met my pwince,

And you told me the same phrases agn ..
-_____________________-

pfft!

Naise movie tdy anyways ^_^

★

" So many things that I wish you knew.  

So many walls up, I can't break through. "

& My favourite fruit is [LEMON] ! :D

In fact some lemons are reeeeeaaally suuuweeeeeeeeeet~~ !!! XD
YUMMMMMMY ~~~ !!! :DDDDDD

My favourite shape is [STAR] & my favourite colour is [YELLOW!] XD

WAI SEPTEMBER SO HAPPENING ?

My heart still feels heavy, really heavy
manymany things have been piling up in me ever since the breakup

i break down umpteen times alr cuz i have alr lost myself

hais zzz

moving on moving on moving on and on
trying hard and trying and trying

i miss all the people i love
i miss ..

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

so many different kinds of feelings in me
im so confused
too much to handle, overwhelming

@!#$%^&*^%$#@!#$%^%&(*)#@#

encountered alot unfortunate events in september
september is so fucked up man

waiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

its so hard for me to handle after losing the one that understands me the most, the biggest pillar of my life, the one that .....

i
need
time

to
be
ready

time
to
settle
things

i glad that i have friends who will be there for me whenever i need someone
but ..
i have an annoying characteristic in which i dun like to bother and disturb people even for smallest things

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

i dont rant, whine, share my feelings to people but pour them in my personal blog
cuz i really prefer to type/write rather than speaking
after all , im the quiet obedient lil girl sitting at the corner of the room

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
aaaaaaaaaaa
tttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt
qqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqq
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

feel better nao ..

TML
I SHALL GO JOGGING?
I SHALL SLEEP TILL SHUANG?
OR SHOULD I GO MY FAV EMO PLACE TO DO MY FAVOURITE DAYDREAMING AND STONING

i wanna play kinect dance >:

Changed phoneeeee ! XD

Finally changed phoneeeeeeeeeeeee XD

Me has changed to Sony Ericsson's Xperia Ray :3

wai me choose this phone instead of those popular smartphone like iphone etc?

• I dont like seeing my phone everywhere
• I dont want to follow the crowd or the popularity choices
• I want to be unique
• DESIGN
• Sleek
• Slim
• Camera 8.1MP
• Unique design of buttons (there goes design agn)
• Light-weight
• HD
• Sratch resistant surface
• Classy gold colour
• Charming and captivating pfft~

Two important things that i go for in a phone, design and camera.

not to offend iphone user, but iphone to me, has dumb design cuz its rectangular with a circle at the bottom..
idk.. maybe i see it far too often and commonly used that im sick of it ? >.<

the previous phone i had was LG Crystal phone before i accidentally dropped it in da toilet bowl -.-

design & uniqueness really matters much to me heees! >_<

Looks like i gonna return my phone to my friend le.... in which i really dun wan to..
cuz .. there are far way too many sweetest memories in my friend's phone...
sweetest messages from people whom i love..
as well as.. hurtful memories.

oh wells, nothing last anways.
still, be it sweet or sour, those times and and memories together will always be kept in my heart ❤

I always follow my heart, for my heart is the only thing that will not let me down.

<3<3 my phoneeeee ^________^
 

LMFAO - Sexy and I Know It is naiseeeeeeeeee ~ pfft! :3

❥

为什么每一次提到钢琴或准备要上课时，
我会感到那么的悲伤和辛苦？

我每一次都在超越我能承受的限度，
逼自己挨过，
都是因为了责任和不想对不起我最尊敬的人。

我很久很久就已经累了，
也尽力了，
请您不要怀疑我没心也没努力因为这次的失败。

虽然我时时刻刻的装可爱，耍脾气，现幼稚的行为，
但其实我从小就已经很懂事也了解您对我的好意和未来着想，
所以我从来没怨过你。

我这一次太令您失望了。

我不知是否应该不应该继续 。。。

thinking back..

me had too many regrets in my life that i dont wanna have anymore
and ignoring people whom i love when they needed me the most.


Damn me

~~~~~~~~~~

I wont do it anymore even if i have to suffer
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

but this is soooo true,

♥

Beelzebub never fails to make me laugh!!
ROFLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL !! XD

Platinum medals :D

 

Bwuahahhahaaas ~~ !!

idk wai i cant play ap champs sia ))):
sibei sucks at them T____T
i wannnna learn nocturne sooonsooon ! >:

❥

How nice. It brings sweetest past memories as well as showing what i am feeling now ..

If loving you is wrong then i don't wanna be right .. ♥

TGIF!!! ^________^  (when im not even working or studying)

ROFLLLL !!
Finally i decided to categorised my LoL fwens in which i dont want to in da past
made a folder call `SweetHeartx! <3

ROFLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!

Wa laoooooo everyday i am having irregular sleeping timings lorxzxzxzxzx
gotta start forcing myself to sleep before 12 !

XD
or nt ?


IDKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK laaaaa x;
>_<





^ (Of course~! *smugface* :3)

>:

F my results ... Zzzzz

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
actually was expecting some to fail but all passed, ohwells...

Wai every year i feel September is a suaysuay month ZZZzzzzz
only when oct comes, things get better machiam like cycle
ZZZZ

Never give up on someone you can’t go a day without thinking about

-- ( Wanted to write something here to rant but forget le) --
ZZzz


& OMG!
ytd was da 1st eva time i bm @ a pub in LoL
HAHAHAHA! ROFLLL!

i didnt know the feeling sho shuang but well, he deserves it seriously
and tdy... i continued to bm and gl ppl :3
but i would never use vulgarities or initiate retarded/childish convo lor pfft!

shuang la ! i dun wan to act friendly and cute liao cuz its sho SHIOK MANNNNXZ !

BWUAHAHHAHAHAAS !! >:]

*sigh

HAISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

me veryvery vex and fustrated ~
)):

i need to have a loooooong personal space to think through and cool down

haissssssss but at the same time, i need accompaniment but not people who keeps questioning me like a police who keeps interrogating a criminal.

my friendsss are always so concern and worry about me, and I reallyreally do appreciate it
but what i really need is jus them to stay right beside me cuz i like that feeling and instead of having the need to keep thinking of answering to their questions, and then questions after questions.

ZZzzzzz zzz -.-

!!@#$%$^%&^*&(@#$#@$

I believe im not a person who craves and seeks for a lot of attentions.
what i need is just sincere accompaniment.... or maybe i do not really know how to express my feelings now.. ZZ

!!!

and yupps ! ls called me tdy , but i was playing LoL as usual so didnt really give my fullest attention ROFLL

at least i wasnt forgotten ..
((;
Sweet~

howhows!! >:

这么办！！ D;

nuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu !!
jialat sibei jialat )):

I really neeed to stop this and shall not continue before it repeat like a cycle of pain le.
Really, i gotta stop thinking before it get worse.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ~~~~~~~

for i now still recovering , and trying to move on ..