& there goes the second lonely post

What's the point of playing ,
when i don't have any real life friends playing with me since few months back .

What's the point of playing ,
when i don't even have much online friends playing with me .

What's the point of playing ,
when people dc-ed and never come back in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when kids have to go bed and forced to shutdown com in midst of soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when gamers in lan shop have to leave in midst of soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when people said , I msging my gf/bf and afk most of the time in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when there are frequent leavers , dc-ers, laggers and trollers in most games in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when there are 2 aps in mid and both die together when laning in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when people play weird meta like , eg all melees , yet don't have the capabilities to handle and troll in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when Vietnamese refused to speak in English when politely asked in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when people instalock, being confident intiatlly and fed enemies in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when carries aren't hitting the correct targets during engage in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when jungler pinged to help, giving false hopes, and decided to turn back to counter jungle while both btm died in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when people loves to troll frequently in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when people aren't being friendly, talking nicely to one another and guiding in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when actual LoL garena community in soloQs aren't mature , disrespectful , loves to condemn one another in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when I started friendly chats , and friendssssssssssssss bascially ignored me.

What's the point of playing ,
when people does not understand about having fun is more important than virtual achievements.

What's the point of playing ,
when I tried to start friendly conversations during games , trying to bring down the tension yet people just want to win and condemn others in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when soloQs are about co-ordinating with people whom you have never played before.

What's the point of playing ,
when the match-making aren't fair even in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when 3 straight games are matching up against the same premade 4/5 opponents in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when I know I am not that heavy , and requested people to carry me but no avail .

What's the point of playing ,
when you are alone.

What's the point of playing ,
when I am always open for guidance , willing to learn and yet nobody gives you any chance to show.

What's the point of playing ,
when you can carry , with your hidden best champion and owning , yet others are too heavy in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when you can carry , with your hidden best champion and owning , yet others just give up hopes and surrender in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when you know enemy laners have buffs , fed and yet your underleveled carry is being overly aggresive in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when you play your best in every games , yet nobody knows in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when you don't deserve to receive such treatment regarding dc-ers , laggers , trollers in all straight games of a particular day in soloQs.

What's the point of playing ,
when your guyfriends aren't playing with you and girlfriends aren't interested.

What's the point of playing ,
if you are playing soloQs games alone for months.

What's the point of playing ,
when you have no friends willing to play with you.

What's the point of playing ,
when your friends ignore you.

What's the point of playing ,
when you are alone.

I'm definitely not done yet .
definitely not with list continues on.

Tried to consistently psycho-ing myself.
every games.

to cheer up.

to smile :)

I am calm and cool.
I am satisfied with myself.

and I will always cheer up.

I will.
Because nobody loves to be with a person with unhappy aura.

I will. cheer up.
Because I am a happy girl.
Because I don't need sympathy. I definitely do not need short-term concerns.
& a smile cost nothing :)

So who does really appreciate me.?
It's pretty simple to do , i know .
So the point would follow to who does really take the effort to stay in my life ?

I've seen .
I see .

I realised .

I am just ,
a timely entertainment , worthless and thrashed when used and done with my fun and innocence .

I am glad .

It's alrights .
Memories are what's more costly .

It's a happy ending , & I have no regrets . :D

It's actually liquid solution that I am holding onto.

Surfaced . love .

or an empty ♡ .


either way .

TW 1 week trip

' Shall create a private album for my taiwan trip. 

` If interested to view, pm me (:

Near is here.

I feel very lonely, in fact, I really dont need unnecessary fames and attentions.

How do i describe this?
Either people are really busy and accidentally ignore me, or that,
I don't deserve anyone's time.

Must be the latter.
I am always that insignificant to people, for it is totally pointless to talk to me.

owh.

pathetic me eh.

X;

男人最骄傲的不是睡过多少女人，而是能有一个女人愿意让他睡一辈子。
女人最骄傲的不是拥有多少男人，而是她的男人愿意为他拒绝多少女人。

世界上有两种美，
外在美：它能满足你的面子，但不定能给一生的幸福。
内在美：它虽然不能给足你面子但它一定能给你一生幸福。

how i wish i can provide both T___T

shittsssss

dafug!

after calculating.. i realise i dont have enuff $$ to buy .....

4MINUTE - 'Volume Up'

LOL i dont know what is this song about but i saw the hairstyle that i wannnnna !





But i think my face too cute to fit it ? LOLLL
nehmindsss ~ still tryinng to grow long hairrr !
& i haven cut/trim yet :DDD

This post going to be lame i know but i still going to write

Was alone eating 擂茶 from that old granny's stall.
- (never tried before cuz i dont dare eat lei cha from outside stalls)

She was alone tending her stall and i wanted to talk to her cuz she like lonely there but idk what to say cuz no common topic. x;

so after i finish my food, i went into her stall (she was behind washing dishes), and i said, "auntie, 谢谢你的擂茶" and she said "哦！不用客气！" with the biggest smile I ever seen! & i like it! :DDD

I usually dont bother to talk to the stall tender after my meal but you see,
lei cha is usually made for social thingy or when got guests come so i feel i shud talk to her LOL

k i know i lame hehhs !

but her lei cha, for stall standards not bad .. i've tried alot and they taste inedible and incorrigible.
esp the ones from malacca. cannot eat 1 LOLLLLLL !

but my ahma's one incomparable and GODLIKE! - esp the spamming of small shrimps and tasty peanuts in which stalls outside cant afford to spam ingredients. The tasty vegetables used are kinda rare to buy too !

hehhs !

body sponge :3

2nd day of using body sponge when showering ~

FEEEEEEEEEEEEELS SO GOOOOOOOOOOD TO USE THE SPONGE N SCRUB MY BODY ! ^_^

SHUANGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG AH ! :DDDDD