fml

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !! )):

zhen me ban ... hao xin ku , xin cheng cheng de ...
she me dou bu xia zuo . !
zao bu dao yi yi le .

It goes up and down and up and down endlessly .

There is something amazing and living that I hold in both of my small hands.

Sometimes it feels cold ,
sometimes it feels hot .

Sometimes it is dull ,
sometimes it is colourful .

Sometimes it appears like a glass ,
sometimes it appears like a diamond .

Sometimes it appears very rough ,
sometimes it appears very smooth .

At times it will grow spikes that pierced through my hands ,
But at times I felt as if i was holding another warming world .

At times I have to open my hands & allow my parents to inspect it ,
But at times I will have to share it with my friends & loved ones .

Nevertheless , be it what form it consistently changes to , which way it goes , who it is with or whatsoever ,
I am still and must be fully responsible for it & gotta stay strong .


Oh.

jus ss

 HAHHAHA ! :3

;D

Likea suweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet family rait ! ^-^
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA !
Happy feet with free pop-corns & ballooons rawkkks ~
;DDD
^-^

more stitches !! ^__________^

( - You sure do know me well ;D - )

Received 2 big bags of presents
(;
all different types of stitches items

Got time then i take pics of my october & nov gifts ? :P
LOLL nao damn lazy lorszxzx ! :3

:|

I used to adore cute, adorable, pretty guys with smooth and flawless faces

but now ,
i find real man with scars who has mountain of experiences and fought through countless battles Da Man

HoHoHo ~
:|

(;

LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
I feel im so blinded by troubles, pms and being self-centered agnxzxz

i can feeeeeeel the love, care and concern from people ard me gradually in which are actually alr shown ~~

))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

im sooo terribleeeee !
will learn to treasure ppl even moar lerzxzxz ~ !!

im feeling so much betttttter ~ !
no moar cramps ! jus lil suan suan :|

hehehheehheees ~ !
^-^

~_~

After looking @ the necessities and optional stuffs that i gonna get
i really can gauge how much money i gonna spend and save le
Furthermore, gotta buy presents ~~

hmmm , been using my own savings for my driving and some of my piano fees
mom did mentioned abt returning the money but i said i dont know how much i've used
so eventually didnt return fully x;

should i ask herrrr cuz i naoooo abt cash tight ~ hmmmmmmmmmmm ..
but she also got extra stuffs and burdens to pay recently, like another new hse in msia and my ahma thingy like medical fees etc besides her usual things like her car, insurance etc .. i think ..

uhhhhh .............................
budden come to think of it ..
i dont really have to get money from her lorssxzx jus that .. idk how to describe that feeling
:\

hmmmmmmm ............

ANGRY and stressss ):

I VERYVERY VERY MOOOOOOOODY TODAY

DAMN MOODY
DAMN MY TERRIBLE MOOOOOOOOD AND PMS

NOT CUZ ANYBODY DISTURB ME
IS IDK WHY OR SOMETHING

I FKING STRESSSSSS AND TIREDDDDDDD
VERYVERY TIREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

NOT ENOUGH SLEEEEEEEEEP
DAMNNNNNNNN MOOOOOOODYY

i started to show signs of ap in which i dont usually have alr ..
i cant control alr
stressed , moooody , irritated
ytd left office like an angry boss when no1 made me angry or wadsoever
its jus me ........

urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

budden
stillll , and stillllllllll
i am controlling
i really really am controlling !
make sure there are no signs of me moody, irate, angry, show ap or wadsoever

i ..
overly stressed alr
i wanna cry so badly but still pulled back my tears deep in me
ytd ..
i think so hard , so furious deep inside
i tried so hard not to clenched my fist, trying to relax and let go but still , its jus too hard

i reallyreally ..
damn pissed but yet trying so hard to surpress those unbearable empowering feelingsss

9qwjdoisjfdksmflk3meni3ou8f9ndys8f9yewnirjqwk

sua

needa overcome these obstacles while carry a burden of responsibilities

maybe to elderly is nth ..
but for my age .. is .. quite a big thing and also something i think i should be experiencing and facing to learn alr

nehminds

nehminds

these few years
the words that i've been gathering the most from people are actually ,
Be Strong , (yingyi , xiiaoyy , yy or wadsoever)

yepsyeps
and i have always been trying

xmas is coming
hmm
all i want to is to wear a santa claus hat and a cute santa-girl dress like the maple or candy cane mf

- (opening up bannedstory so as .. to make an example ) -

♥♥♥

Suweeeeeeeet bo !!! ~~ ^-^
DAMNNNN cuteeee rait ! ~~
If i do smoochies & wink emotions cfm go maple mesmorised dao alot xdd LOL ! O:
♥

If i playing maple naoo , this cfm my character looks alr laaaa LOLLLLLL hhehehehes (;


Old pics i had made

My fav kind ~ LOLOLOLLLLL ~ !

- -

Naiseeeeeeee lorrs ~ !! :3

I like another kind of male hairstyle but apparantly no time to make cuz gonna do my work le hees

gotta get busy

hmmm..

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/stomp/sgseen/this_urban_jungle/818350/youll_never_guess_how_old_this_woman_is.html

"Here are some tips from her to help women look younger:
- exercise regularly, get enough sleep and don't smoke (rait nao like cannot exercise lehhys but will note)
✓ eat fresh, healthy food
- have a balanced diet and 4 meals a day in small portions
- Drink lots of water and fluids as water helps wash off toxins and keeps your skin healthy
✓ Apply lighter make-up and shades as you grow older
- Apply vitamin E based cream or lotions on body to keep skin soft and supple
- Always apply sunscreen if you intend to stay out in the sun (dont intend to)
- Follow the cleaning, toning and moisturising regime every night before you got to sleep."

d@$#@%$#^%*&^*THFDGSEWR#@

Hais .

today me has bad menstrual cramps for whole day

wake up early as usual in da morning
in office feeling moody
warned everybody me has pms dun disturb me but still kena disturbed

no eaten lunch as usual & took my time to slp and play ai on lol

then end work le
rain very heavily
me no umbrella and feeling damn lazy so decided to stay for sometime then go home

then rmb needs to top up money in my driving lesson acct ..

took mrt to bukit gombat ..
still drizzling
then when i alighted ,
realised i dont know how to go bbdc

so i jus walk ard but i dont dare talk to strangers to ask for directions cuz i too shy
i dont know where i am heading then i try recall the surroundings that i'd seen last time

i rmb there got mrt track
so i u-turn bak to where i walked from and followed the mrt track

then saw wad hometeam ns.. idk wadde hell is that i tot im lost..
but i insisted tat i followed the mrt track jiu dui .. so i continue walking..

drizzling night and the pathways are really wet with puddle
trying not to fall cuz abit of phobia le

the way to bbdc damn long
and its like ard 830 alr?

while walking on the road .. feeling terrible cuz of pms and menstrual cramp
then started to think negatively )))));

i am busy
i have lots of responsibilities to do
i am  piled with a lot of things to settled
it's true that my time are packed

beside normal office hours , when got time ,
do my normal routine ( bathe, eat, hsework)
game training
and my piano practicing
i dont have much personal spaces that i can have
and i am a person who needs huge amount of personal spaces ..
if nt i will flare and moody .. (budden i still able to control very well)
...
too many things to do .. and my weekends are always ... hais ..
sun is definitely for my piano , slp and my family
i jus cant be with my friends ...
so scheduled tight ..

so much things on hand yet .. yet i am feeling veryvery lonely in fact ..
unbelievable uh.

not that i need a bf or love or something
its not that way .. and i dont need a bf

jus .. need someone to understand me truely ..
talking to me the way i wanted ..
replying in a heart warming sense
but at the same time not overly showering me with concerns

uhhh...
complicated much bahs . or prolly i really pms dunno wad im thinking ..

but im really lonely ..
and i dont know what i want in my life yet ..

hates menstrual cramps .

idk wad to blog

I dont know what to blog about so jus share some long statuses i saw in my news feed
LOLOLOLOLOLOLLs !! :3

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Beautiful Soul

idk how many times i wanna post this but loveeeeeeeeeee this songgggggggg 4ever (X

Feeling terrible

In da morning ,
bad diarrhea
went toilet and cough out alot phlegm and accompanied by blood

cleaned my wound using cold water and cotton buds
walked(limped rather -.-) out of house to go office & felt headache

surrounded by many people in mrt, felt so terrible..
like too many things and infomation going in my mind, grumbling

went to office still headache and stomach pain
while writing this post start to feel feverish ...

i want to go home and rest now ..
mom is picking me up ltr

but i need rmb to buy anticeptic cream ltr to clean my wound cuz my hse dont have
hope i wont get infection .

should have know i starting to get sick from the mild sore throat & coughing..

feels so terrible.

The better you do, the more haters you have, but the more you love the less you notice them.

This is soooooooooooo ME ! {:

I love this pictureeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~ Best of all lurhs ! (X

Thou its short time period, but this is actually the only thing that i wanted for my birthday 

- Togetherness (;

Meme do thisss !! anyonee do tis tooooo ?? ROFLLLLLL !! :3

:|

Gonna go bbdc ltr (;

._.

Link

"
And finally … how to fall in love

1. Find a complete stranger.
2. Reveal to each other intimate details about your lives for half an hour.
3. Then, stare deeply into each other’s eyes without talking for four minutes.

"

Oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo can i try ^_^


Link 2

Ooooooooooooooo i didnt know i like introvert faces and behaviour

:3

Pandaaaaaaaaas ! ~ Cuteeeeeeeeeeee >_<

Feeeel like hugggging them tightly ! (X

X.x

SHOULD i stop showing my teeth when smiling in front of camera ? >:

but i like to show teeth but lika not naiseeeeeeeeeeeee T________T
howshows ! hmmmmmmmmmmmm ..............

♥

If you Love someone,
Then don’t hold back your feelings,
because Love is the Reason to live.

Can (----) show what kind of person he/she is ?

Can Facebook profile show what kind of person he/she is ?

People may showcase their better and attractive pictures, better traits and personality information and recalibrate on their replies and posts to make themselves appear ideal. Does it mean the person is trying to be a perfectionist or someone who is cautious and dont wanna reveal much of his trueself?

When a person share every single views and experiences she has and then complains and attacks virtually on another person, does it mean she is a bitch, narrow-minded, immature or just that she cannot stand being hurt by another person and have no other places to vent?

When I placed my most of my information in my profile, pictures and everything does it mean im stupid, seeking attentions, trying to lure more friends or does it mean that i wanna flaunt how happy i am?

When i talk so freely and added alot of emoticons to brighten up my replies, does that mean im over-friendly, acting cute, trying to seek attentions, showing my enuthsiasms in the topics or trying hard to make the convo going?

I wonder how does my facebook profile tells others what kind of person I am ~ hmm...

i guess the sequence should be like this.. (from a stranger POV)
hmmmmmmmmm..........

adorable and cute XMM
innocent and sweet
long hair (ROFLLLLL)
lively
no emo post = lesser emotions probs from me to handle
likes cute thing = easy satisfied jus by giving cute things to me
girly
typical girl
proactive in giving attentions to ppl, can entertain me alr (apparantly im a non-chalant person)
overly-friendly
immature ( for i didnt post mature and sensible things)
nice person to be friend with (or rather, another collection to yur xmm friendlist)
camwhore (obviously im not)
how i wish my friends know that i have a friend like her
*then wondering if she how old or has suitable age to be with

then..
after that, when they looked at my tagged pictures..

Oooooooo.. so this is how she looks like without makeups.. hmmmmm.... o....
wow, gamer girl sia .. can play with her (but i hope she is my oppo and get thrashed by me)
this girl cfm online and play most of the time
got another 'com'panionship for me alr
hmm looks so normal girl lor
still can be friends nevertheless
hope she is another person to give me love and attentions lor
why she keeps act cute, i wan see a mature sexy side

k la, nbms, jus add only.. *add friend
then i accept
then he/she would ignore and forget such facebook friend like me le

ROFLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
i guess it probably would go like this...
idk x; hehheheheheheees
i think i read/watch too much comics, manga, animes and cartoons le
:|

jus being random for the sake of boredness..

- Next -

Can music instrument show what kind of person he/she is ?

playing a piano, harp or classical guita = emotional, sentimental and loving ?
playing a double bass or saxophone  = down-on-earth and independent ?
etcetc

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
im still me ROFLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
i have my own past, experiences, background, horoscope, mindset, environment, people which shapes me

kk i getting more random alr.. hmmm



Can games show what kind of person he/she is ?

yesssssssssssss definitely ! but i dunno how to explain.. there are lots of games from offline - online, single player to multiplayer and different genres so... ....
idk how explain ROFLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL


to be continued.. or nt?
gimmie more words to talk abt ! >_<

A Bear Hug ( RAWR means I love you in .. bear? ) -

Let me hold you.
Let me keep you warm.
Let me embrace you.
Let me keep you from harm.

(I wanna feel you
I wanna melt your heart
I wanna keep you close to me
And protect you from any dangers) -

I'll fiercely fight.
I'll give my all.
I'll claw and bite.
I'll tear and maul.

(I will rage
But never will I quit
I will engage in fights
And make sure they die) -

Like a grizzly bear
Like a tiger, wild
Like a diamond, rare
Like a kid who smiled.

(I am a werewolf
Roaming in jungle
Relate me to an unicorn
that shines brightly in darkness) -

Let me keep you from harm.
Let me embrace you.
Let me keep you warm.
Let me hold you

(I want to protect you
I want to feel your warmth
I want to shelter you
and keep you by my side) -

In a warm, safe bear hug.

(As I embraced you tightly in sauna) -

Poem by Chuck Keller
( ) - : denotes rephrased by xiiaoYY

hhehehhehehheheees !!! >_<

` trying not to link to LoL, but make reader feels so LoL & 'lol' :3
heees !

Change

The shorter the title, the more i can write and think about it, because it is too vague in which can expand my thoughts.

By typing, "define change" in google, i get verb form: Make or become different and noun form: The act or instance of making or becoming different.

Externally, I can talk about changes in environment, people - strangers, friends and family, life, how it is like in the past and present - history, future improvements, things around that are deteriorating, Facebook etc, just basically everything.

Internally, in which is myself, I can discuss changes about my thinking, my body, my decision, my life - on academic, love and relationship etc.

ok shit...
im stuck here.. idk wad to write cuz there are far way too many information in my mind and i cannot organise them..

kk , i think of something else to write

What is this i don't even ..

I need do somethingssssss..
can anyone gimmie some amaths qns to do................. ROFLLLL

Dont ask me what happened ROFLL

:3

Anybody wanna be a writer on my blogg ? ROFLLLLLL
i scared i wont be updating as much le x;

come to think of it, many people whom i love dont blog...
i wannnna read blogs ROFLLLLLLLLLLLL >_<

-!-
SOME DAY , !
SOMEDAY, IMMA really post a vid of myself rolling on da floor laughing to show what exactly is ROFL when people used it so easily !

(since nobody would prolly read my blog, 10 likes & imma do it - 10 is always a lucky number)

❥

"
Sometimes we spend time asking who is responsible or who to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know. We miss out some warmth in human relationship in giving each other support. After all, shouldn't forgiving someone we love be the easiest thing in the world to do? Treasure what you have. Don't multiply pain, anguish and suffering, by holding on to forgiveness.

If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, there would be much fewer problems in the world.

Take off all your envies, jealousies, unwillingness to forgive, selfishness, and fears and you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think...
"

Reckless words pierce like a sword but the tongue of the wise brings healing.


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1st time having macarons >.<
taste soooooooooooooooooooo naiseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee manxzxzx ~~ !! ^___^
naiseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~~ !!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

 





But i just cannot understand why issit 2 bucks each .. hmmmm .....

Had mah favouriteeeeeeeeeeeee GREEN TEA & DARK CHOCO HOOOOKKAIDO ICECREAMMM! ♥♥♥!! ;D
F YES ! OH MANXZXZXZXZX ~~~~~~~~~ !!
SUPERLY-DUPERLY SO DAMN SATISFIED AND ELATED XD
feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeels sho gooooooooood to always eat desserts :DDD
shioooooooooook ! ~~
(X

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me must jiayouuuuuuuuus on tml's internship heees!
(X
excited yet worried ~ T_________________T

1more day to internship.............................................................................

OK .

i wont act cute & act friendly anymore
(:

I think, come to think of it..
i more prone to attract lots and lots of misunderstandings actually, rather than guys(as wad many said, but i dont think that i got tat much admirers tbh..)

i still prefer a life alone for now anyways, but that doesnt mean im lonely
all along, i never thought of getting a boyfriend ever since ...
im really a very simple person, why does everything makes me feel so complicated, or that i am actually a complicated person?

i dont have to be bothered by it anyway.
for most people dont understand me ..

hmmm..

Saw this in fb.

Pretty girls who think they are pretty = be more humble yo!
Pretty girls who think they are ugly = Aw, be more confident.
Average girls who think they are pretty = ok can.
Ugly girls who think they are pretty = ermmmmm, cool your confident.
Super duper ugly girls who think they are super duper pretty = shut the fuck up you muthafhuker shameless bitch.

"it's never perfect to be a girl."

What if i think im adorable ? ROFLLLLLLLLLLL LOLOLOLLLL



haissssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
i miss having personal trainer who sits beside me patiently guiding me ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

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Banner changed !

I've always wanted to change my blog "banner" in which previously was made dedicated to someone

for backgrd, i find it quite.. pleasing to the eyes so i didnt really wanna change.
with my current blog backgrd, of course my banner image shouldnt have backgrd to it thus i used png format

i think pink font suits my backgrd.

i like old classic songs, so jus input few phrases from one of my songs
and added a pink rose cuz i find it too plain :\
i had trouble finding suitable font type cuz i've dl-ed too many fonts :3

hope i did bring out a simple, gentle yet romantic feeling ..

then i looked @ the overview.... i said to myself..

fuck -.- my blog cfm signals to my readers that i am a person who is craving for love or someone alr
toooooooo much of.... "something" that i cant figure what wad issit ROFLLLLL ZZZ -.-

hmm... i think i should try writing "essays" instead of being lazy and input pictures alr
budden... my life kind of standard.. nth to write abt manxzxzxzxz

>:


I really, really like the idea of people whom i love give me "cozy" things such as jacket, sweater or something that can keep me by my side to keep me warm ~

someday... hopefully in this month... i'll take... pics of ... ROFLLLLLLL

so many people dont understand me, so many people trying to get near me
as well as so many people trying to hurt me

at least for now, i know my heart is kept somewhere safe ^_^
been learning new things and experiences recently

.....

for all the things that i've been through... i know who are the ones watching and looking out for me..
(:

horrible.

2 more days to internship . hoho!

^_______________________________________^

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

wai everybody loves to take my unglam & candid pics >:[
wa laoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooosxzxzxzxzxzx
hateeeeeeeee taking picsssssssss

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR


dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee cramps dieeeeeeeeeeeeee !

`ineedphonecasing>:

4 more days to internship )':

menstrual cramp go dai go dai ! T____________T
dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

"You're so fabulous, you're so good to me, baby baby
you're so good to me, baby baby
you're so good :3"

hun-greeee !

XX says 420 fb bday wishes siaaaaa~ but i think his counting skills sucks (;

needa buy clothes for internship nxt mon sooon >:
wont be online as much and socialising virtually le x;

I always wanna list down on my understanding abt myself eva since tat retard psy cher said to understand others, you have to understand yurself 1st and ask us to list but i didnt....

I will put down when i get bak homeeeeeee ltr ! >_<  (prolly cuz i damn lazy)

"Women's intuitions will never get wrong, esp. when it comes to feeling for other lady.
Thou terrible but time will heal.
Its my morals. I would not wanna be one sided neither a 3rd party.
Afterall, its onnly the surface (;"

ROFLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL -____-

 

- LINK -

LAZY finish up my vid so here's a DAMN mini preview i guess x;

Link ( if you cannot see too bad ^_^ )