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Hais .

today me has bad menstrual cramps for whole day

wake up early as usual in da morning
in office feeling moody
warned everybody me has pms dun disturb me but still kena disturbed

no eaten lunch as usual & took my time to slp and play ai on lol

then end work le
rain very heavily
me no umbrella and feeling damn lazy so decided to stay for sometime then go home

then rmb needs to top up money in my driving lesson acct ..

took mrt to bukit gombat ..
still drizzling
then when i alighted ,
realised i dont know how to go bbdc

so i jus walk ard but i dont dare talk to strangers to ask for directions cuz i too shy
i dont know where i am heading then i try recall the surroundings that i'd seen last time

i rmb there got mrt track
so i u-turn bak to where i walked from and followed the mrt track

then saw wad hometeam ns.. idk wadde hell is that i tot im lost..
but i insisted tat i followed the mrt track jiu dui .. so i continue walking..

drizzling night and the pathways are really wet with puddle
trying not to fall cuz abit of phobia le

the way to bbdc damn long
and its like ard 830 alr?

while walking on the road .. feeling terrible cuz of pms and menstrual cramp
then started to think negatively )))));

i am busy
i have lots of responsibilities to do
i am  piled with a lot of things to settled
it's true that my time are packed

beside normal office hours , when got time ,
do my normal routine ( bathe, eat, hsework)
game training
and my piano practicing
i dont have much personal spaces that i can have
and i am a person who needs huge amount of personal spaces ..
if nt i will flare and moody .. (budden i still able to control very well)
...
too many things to do .. and my weekends are always ... hais ..
sun is definitely for my piano , slp and my family
i jus cant be with my friends ...
so scheduled tight ..

so much things on hand yet .. yet i am feeling veryvery lonely in fact ..
unbelievable uh.

not that i need a bf or love or something
its not that way .. and i dont need a bf

jus .. need someone to understand me truely ..
talking to me the way i wanted ..
replying in a heart warming sense
but at the same time not overly showering me with concerns

uhhh...
complicated much bahs . or prolly i really pms dunno wad im thinking ..

but im really lonely ..
and i dont know what i want in my life yet ..

hates menstrual cramps .