Recently i made a friend angry. i tink it was yesterday or the day before.
Couldnt remember the actual date n i had deleted my smses (im
i wasnt in the right mood. im fucking stressed up. my mind was confused when someone msged me that day.
My head was hurting me very much and i wasnt thinking well and i accidently insulted him.
i do not insult people, but i couldnt help it on that day because i couldnt think and didnt know what i was doing.
I said the meanest thing to him but i seriously do not mean it. i swear.
My mind wasnt working well because im so stressed up these days that n i even almost fainted in school, yesterday.
I really do not mean what i say.
if i still have that sms i would type it out here but i didnt have it.
i apologised.
he ignored me.
what else can i do.
i started smsing 100 sorries to him.
he still ignore me.
It was him who sms me at the wrong timing, saying something IRONIC but harmless.
My reaction was involuntary. (i didnt really have conscious of what i was doing)
i regretted. this incident just looks the same as the previous when i did something wrong and wasnt forgiven.
Are all guys so petty? Or am i being overboard till i couldnt b forgiven?
I dont feel good plus my head is still hurting me.
People around me(especially my classmates) told me to get well soon.
i hope i realli can get 'well' soon.
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[continue]
His sms came !!
this time i didnt del my msg and his replied was..
? Sorry for?
at 11.49.49pm
His msn came next..
him: y i angry with u?
(blahblah here)
then i told him i need him as my friend ( he's my close fwen, he knows alot n part of my past )
him: really meh
him: very like hard to believe right?
me: nbms if u dun believe.
him: lol
him: ok la
him: sayang
me: z
him: ((:
him: dont sad
me: ok
him: ((:
seems like he had forgiven me but feigning about not knowing whats happening ._.
In any case, i've learnt my lesson.
no matter how pain my brain is hurting me or have any conscious of anything or what,
must diedie force myself to think before saying, if not,
do not reply anyone and wait till im okay then do.
i dont like the feeling of losing any of my friends, especially those who have been through lots of "windwind rainrain" with me.
the feeling was terrible.
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[i was encouraged to update thus this post , if not i would have just let it die =P]
Last but not least..
i Love my life though it's stressful, but all the stress, saddness n happiness are what that make my life interesting! (:
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