Current Music Green day - 21 gun
feeling uncomfortable .
sighs .
been sneezing hard these few days .
must have caught a cold , or probably , stress up bahhs ..
sorethroat worsen . soring like an eagle . zz
feel super dry in there , like frozen and painful .
dam dun feel like talking , one word out from my mouth will cause me pain le ):
still having running nose , but it seems like nose aint blocked anymore , but itchy .
i am so gonna heal myself without the use of medicine
caused imbalance in my brain as i kept thinking negatively and positively, then negatively again -.-
idk lurhhs , just cant think properly .
right now , im thinking of greenapple/watermelon iceblended and especially natural flavour yami yoghurt D;
so dumb&lame of me .
ytd was craving for beef speghetti . lmaos :\
sighs .
i couldnt finish my eis test on mon . cant believe it mann .
openbook still like this . if close how , worst ..
i know im smart yet superly lazy .
all day thinking of my bed and sleeping onnly zzzz .
sighs .
idk if im born like this or cuz i dont have any motivation to fight against myself .
struggle so hard for wad . zzz
nehmindds .
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whenever im feeling melancholy , i would think of playing my piano .
i detest playing seriously , how contradicting .
but the sound produced , the strings , and the feeling really make me feel better .
idk . like there's someone accompany me .
my piano has been with me for many years , i've been playing piano for a decade .
thou it's a non-living thing , but it seems like it's the onnly one that truly understands and knows me well .
retardded rights .
if im sad , playing slow&emotional music can really make me feel better .
its like someone accompany me and also accompany me to feel sad tgt .
because of whatever reasons that i am unhappy , i will think of the unhappiness & my piano will "listens" and "understands" as i play it .
._."
i wanna sit by the seashore and gaze at the sea before i go to my oversea study trip .
sighs .
the trip will be awesome , ! i guess ~
cant believe im thinking abt it right now when my exams haven finish ._."
no motivation to study and read the god-dam txtbook cannns zzz
and f tat person who has no experience in teaching {- dont wanna say much } .
zzz nehmindds .
overall , im still a lucky kid who have a complete family . shouldnt complain much .
im satisfied with what i have now .
i believe my immune system is strong okay , ! & i can get well soon (:
^ look kinda sleepy with a lil pale lips to me :\
i'll take better pics after my exams i guess .
^i know i looked retarded in both pics tq .
^ found a spare classroom to hibernate while waiting for the meeting in 1hr's time on last wed :\
old random pics :
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mystitchverymuch ((:i know ima supersuper non-chalant person . its very hard for me to show concern&care to others . like as if i dont give a dam ._. actually , i just dont wanna show it onnly ._.
when i show concern to my close friends , im afraid i might be too irritating .
but when i dont show , others may think that i dont care & its none of my biz .
._. sighs
actually ..
i longlonglong time ago find others showing me too much concern kinda irritating x;
blehhsss
and phrases like , " are you free ? " and " what are you doing " is stupid becuase i am doing many things .
for illustration , a scenario , drinking yakult while playing fb .
MSN ,
friend : hi , what are you doing
(*)me - "thinking whether he is plain boring or if he wants to communicate with me to foster rs or just wants my attention or playing a prank or got important things to discuss with me"
me : nth much .
LOLLLS thats what i will say because i am breathing, looking at screen, drinking yakult, playing fb, listening, sitting down, thinking, typing .. i mean , you ask me what am i doing so do you want me to say them all out ? ..
in conclusion , the question is very wide and general which will lead me to think of many other things in (*) and make me feel a lil piss off :|
ok laas , being lame but truthful .. :\
` "Time goes by so fast, people go in and out of your life. You must never miss the opportunity to tell these people how much they mean to you." -Cheers
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